The Confession (Part 1)
The Rejection (Part 2)
The Flashback (Part 3)
The Apology (Part 4)
Before i start the after math story, i wanna apologized for taking sooo long for me to finish all the story. To be honest, there was never really a part 5 for this story. I was over ambitious and wanted to making the whole story into 5 parts just to sound more cooler. But the moment i wanted to blog about it, i couldnt figure out any parts of the story which i left out.. I was 'this' close to the extend to drop the plan of making a 'part 5' but just the other day, something happen and it created/became the part 5 of the story. Dont worry, its nothing bad and it makes the perfect finale. X)
So, lets continue our story RIGHT after the apology incident (part 4). Ever since the incident (please read the previous chapters to understand what the incident is) we didnt really talk much to each other anymore.. Both of us went our own way. We did text each other for a time period.. like for the first few months and after that.. vanish.. things between us just became quiet. It was like we both became strangers again..
Now, even know we both been through that long and dreadful drama together, deep down i still think of her once in awhile. (even until today. XP) Ever since that incident, and whatever that she have done.. I told myself never to forget this girl. So, i've been finding multiple ways to reach her. Like going over to her friends and ask them do they still keep contact with her and all. I even approach her bf to know how she was doing. (I bet the bf felt extremely annoyed. XD) I still get updates from them but until a certain period of time, the just updates just stop..
Everything was silent until it hitted college years.. One day, I overheard a few of my temple friends that are talking about this girl who was nice and beautiful. I was kepo-chi (busybody) so I went ahead and asked who are they talking about. Then they mentioned her name.. I was surprise and at the same time, happy.. After so long, i finally found a way reach her again.. So ever since the day i know that my friends are friends with her, i always come to sunday school and ask how is she doing and all.. and my friends would tell her how am i doing as well. basically, they are like the messager for both of us. XD
I remember the day when i first have my own skype account.. i was asking people to add me on facebook and she was one of the first few people who asked me to add her. Right after that, we had our very first skype conversation.. she was actually one of the very first people who have i a one-on-one video chat skype conversation. And that conversation we had, lasted pretty long.. if i didnt recall wrong, it was about 2 hours plus. XP
There were on and off moment.. she is busy with her college stuffs and im busy with my own.. but once in awhile we will skype conversation each other. After that, there was the meet up moment.. it was the day where me, her and my friends planned an outing together. That was the day that we officially meet each other again after 6 longs years. At the end of the outing, there was the moment that we both sat outside her college, chat while waiting for her parents to come and pick her up. It was just like the good old days when we are in high school. X)
Until this very day (It was actually a couple of few weeks ago) She was about to head to UK to peruse her studies. I knew that a long time ago but i just couldnt find the right time to get to hang out with her before she leave to UK. Besides, it was uni days so i've been busy doing my assignment half of the time.. therefore, i couldnt really plan anything special for her before she leaves..
In the end, the night before she flew to UK, i decided to call her and just talk.. I know it something really really small for a finale.. but at least this time, before she leaves, we both have a nice talk with each other.. So, we both talk and update each other on how we are doing so far and how both of us meet and back. We also talked about a couple of things that happen between both of us in the past that we dont even know.. It was story telling time.. XP
I remember back then i use to LIE to her and tell her that im waiting for my brother to fetch me from the front gate but the truth is, im always walking home from the back gate. The reason is pretty obvious, its to spend more time with her. Since both of us are in different classes back then and she is sooooo popular among the guys, talking to her was difficult and of course, who wouldnt wanna spend more time with someone they really like right?
But what i didnt know is.. one day, just like any other normal after school day.. i waited with her and talked to her at the front gate after school. Her mom came, pick her up, she left, i walk back to the back gate and walk home.. But that day, she left her water bottle at the front gate. So she asked her parents to turn around, head to the front gate to get the bottle. On the way to the front gate, she caught me walking back home.. And at that point, she probably knew that i had feelings for her already..
Another thing that she did reminded me was the 'hidden food in the drawer' incident.. Now, this is actually a pretty creepy story in my opinion.. if your in her point of view, you would find this extremely scary. (pre-warned. XD) Back then in high school.. she is very busy with her chinese society stuffs.. and she often doesnt have the time to go to canteen to eat something. (fyi, i got all these information from her friends. XP)
So, once in awhile.. i will buy something for her from the canteen and head to her classroom and place in right in her desk drawer. And when she comes back, she will find some small packs of food like friend fries or nuggets in her drawer with alittle note by me. Yeah.. creepy issint it? And in my opinion, thats probably the second hint for her to know that I liked her. Now come to think of it, did i ever get her into trouble? D8
Okay, some of you guys are asking me "Dude, whats with the jacket? Why are u wearing it all the time?" and i always answer "There is a special meaning behind this jacket.". Remember? Yeaps, the meaning behind the jacket has something to do with this girl. And many of you guys dont know about it, so im here to tell you guys the story. XP
Now, did say I couldnt reach her but i didnt say there was never once i didnt meet her anywhere or anytime before i found a way to reach her. I did meet her but we just didnt spend alot time together, mostly was just a random 'hi' and 'bye' incident and both of us will get back to what we are suppose to do. But for this story, it was alittle bit different..
After about 3 years after the incident, i manage to meet her again.. and how did we meet was very unexpected for both of us. It was the year of SPM, the exams that all form 5 students fear for their life. My mom got a free entry to a very famous SPM seminar in University Malaya and she decided to send me there ALONE. I was extremely reluctant to go cause i dont like going to these kind of functions and of course, going there without a partner will just be extremely boring..
Since she didnt tell me anything about it.. plus, i was sorta forced to go (cause my mom said so) she decided to make it up to me by bringing me for an early mamak breakfast before the the seminar. At the mamak, i notice a girl who looks extremely familiar.. but i didnt really bother about it cause i was not really in a good mood as i was not really looking forward to a lonely seminar by myself.. I didnt really have a very clear view of the girl as well.. so, dont bother.
I head for the seminar, listen to how lecturers are teaching us how to write a proper english essay.. bla bla bla.. and after a long 2 hours of seminar, i finally get to have my first seminar break.. I remember clearly that during the break, i was eating donuts on a stair case alone and suddenly i get a tapped on the back. When i turn around, there she is. She was very surprise to see me and so was I. Apparently, the girl who i saw We talked alittle bit and she introduced her me to her friends. After that she invited me over to sit beside them during the seminar..
During the seminar she felt cold cause apparently we are sitting pretty close to the air con. So, i borrowed her my jacket for her to wear. (hero moment) And in the end, she wore the jacket for quite awhile and returned it to me after the seminar day. That was the first part of the story, the second part (which is pretty short) comes in when i found a way to reach her and during the outing with her and my friends. We went and watch a movie and again, she felt cold and at the same time, i was wearing the exact same jacket that day. So again, i borrowed her my jacket again. XP
Now the hidden meaning behind the jacket is not because i still have feelings for her, its because of the memories and lessons of life that she left behind me for me. She is the reason why i became little more stronger than i was last time. She is the reason of why i am alittle more matured than before. And the jacket is more like a reminder to myself, to remember what happened in the past, to not the same mistakes so that it will not happen again. I've hurt one good friend before and that jacket will tell me not to hurt another one again..X)
And that jacket sometimes gives me luck.. i dunno why.. but its like she freaking charmed the jacket or something. XD
Whatever that was told above was almost everything that we talked on the phone during the talk session before she head over to UK. We talked for so long that her phone battery died and i have to call her using my cell phone to call her back.. After a long 2~3 hours long of phone conversation we decided to end the conversation and head to bed. When i drop the call, i sighed.. not because of disappointment but relieve and satisfaction.. This time, i get to give her a proper farewell.. When i check my phone credit, it went from RM23+ down towards RM9+. I smiled and told myself that all of it, was worth it. X)
A couple of weeks after she flew to UK, it was her birthday. On her birthday I asked her for a skype call for that day and she agrees to chat on skype with me and set a time for us to skype. The time she set was a about 2am in Malaysia time but in UK time its 2pm in the afternoon. It was actually a good time for me since i have more time to get ready for our conversation and since it was her birthday, i decided to find something special for her.
I couldnt do anything much about the present part cause it was late, i could buy or make anything for her. So, i did was i USE to do best. Drawing. I drew a picture of her in the short 2 hours of last minute planning.. It didnt really turn out the way that i wanted it look like since it didnt really look exactly like her and the person that i drew could be anyone else. (really) and i was happy with it. X)
When we skyped, i uploaded the picture and send it to her. We both talked, update each other and then took a nice picture of each other thru skype.. It was funny and extremely fun at the same time. After chatting till about 4am in the morning.. we decided to end the conversation, i head to bed and she head to her table and study. And tell u guys to truth, that night i couldnt really sleep cause i was overwhelmed with happiness. XP
A picture of her that i drew in less than 2 hours. XP
The last picture that i took picture with each other before we end the covnersation. XP
And that officially concludes the story of "My First", i sincerely apologize that i took sooooo extremely long for me to finish such a short story. If i would tell u guys the story face to face, it would be alot more shorter than this one. XD
I hope you guys enjoyed the story and hopefully, some of you guys might learn a thing or two from this story.