Dont worry.. Be Happy..

College seems a little bit quiet these days.. the march intakers are not around and the january intakers are much busy settling up for mid terms and quizes.

So i guess its proven that march intakers are the main source of noise in HELP. XD And im going to be very very honest.. I missed the march intakers. X)

I've been having a pretty hard week right after CFC is over.. all the bad stuffs are coming in. I did good things during CFC, why am i getting bad karmas instead!?

I find David Choi songs are amazing.. All of his songs totally understands me.. sometimes i think that i dont need to figure out some words of wisdoms to explain my feelings. All i can do is just steal his lyrics and express my feelings! XD

Heres what im going to say to express my feelings..

I'm just having conversations..
with the thoughts in my head..
all I hear are angels crying..
Won't they just sing instead..

Honestly, this won't do..
how is she doing?
I tell myself I'm feeling swell..
but I know I'm such a fool..

I'll just take it as a new beginning..
but you know I don't feel that way..
who will take all this pain away?

Cause you'll probably find love..
In someone new..
I have to let go..
Yeah, its hard to do..

So if I ever see you on the street..
I'll pretend that I didnt see..
And turn my face..
No use in small talk anyways..
Cause if I look into your eyes..
Then Ill have to say goodbye..
And that'll break my heart..

Basicly.. most of the lyrics are from the song "That Girl".. XP

This is all true.. im am feeling this way right now..

Awww come on.. can I just be emotional for awhile again? XP

The pain will go away.. not today, not tomorrow, not the day after tomorrow but SOMEDAY. X)

Im going to be SUPER emotional unstable these days.. but dont worry.. I have my ways to chill myself down.. X) yes, Im angry, sad, depressed and dissapointed.. i'll be alone some times but i wont show myself to everyone..

I dont wanna be the one that makes everyone sad..

After all.. this is not the first time that this happened.. X)

Thats all im saying.. for now..

David Choi's musics understands me the most..

Tonight im going to just play 'That Girl' over and over again..

12th CFC -My Feedback

I dont have pictures yet, so i wont be telling stories yet in my blog but i can tell you guys how was it like for me.

Last few years back i was only an ordinary cafeterian.. but this year.. Im the Head of Cafeteria. Yeap, be very surprise ppl! Ppl like me who dont really know much about food is actually the head of cafeteria! Even Alex and Corliss were like, OMG are the kids alive! (yes they are u idiots! XD)

If John didnt fly to Australia and Shu Xian didnt back off from camp, I wont be doing this job lo. But still.. somewhere inside my heart wanted to take this post. So im up for it.. But heres the thing, if someone actually tells u that being a head of cafeteria is easy.. THINK AGAIN!!

I believe that being any HEAD in the camp will be tough and hard. Since im a carefree person i wont like to organize stuffs.. i just wanna sit down order and relax but in this camp.. NOOOOOOOO~ i cant do so anymore. (i did that last time la but not the ordering around part. XP)

This time CFC is giving me a whole new level of experience. Last time i am the follower but not im the one leading the group. Plus, in this camp i know more about myself..

I know that i am not a very good estimator. I buy 10 packs of bread is not enough for the camp, when I fried 10 packs of nuggets, its too much. I hard for me to estimate these things. XD Thats why i got assistance to help me out! XD

Special thanks to Suelyn, See Toh, Ying Phing, Hvey Jci, Vincent, Shu Chin, Kelly and Wei Chiang for helping me out with the cafeteria stuffs. basicly, Thank EVERYONE that helped me through out the camp! EXCEPT Justin Lee! XD Yeah, his a partner of mine.. I called Suelyn my PA = Personal Assistant and i called Justin my PE = Personal Entertainer! XD

When i was facilitator i was like the nicest dude that treat kids very nice.. i seldom yell at them or even scold them. (i dont think i ever scolded them!) but when i became a cafeteria, i started being the meanie in the campus. I will start scolding kids for making noise (they used me as the crowd control!)

I thought that kids will hate me or dislike me more when i became the head.. but on the 2nd night right after dinner.. some facilitators came to me and said 'Your FANS wants to meet you..' I have no idea what are they talking..

To be honest i was thinking for some mature good looking girls waiting for me.. (gimme a break la..XD) when i enter the hall, kids are clapping for me, whistling, and cheering for me. I was shocked for a moment and at the same time.. happy. They says that im LENG ZHAI! (i did force them to said sometimes.. but that night was different! XD)

Alright being a head sure is tough.. but its worth it! Specially when the end of the day u hear responds from other ppl. Im actually closer to the ppl who are working in the temple's cafeteria! 13 years in the temple and NOW only i get close with them. XD See its worth it! XD

So do i wanna be the head of Cafeteria again? NOOOO!! but my heart says.. Yes. X)

One of Those Days again

Thursday.. Today was pretty much okay.. its actually better than average days. XD

My main concern of today is only my Internet Principle quiz. Althought its only like 5% but im going to go all out with it! XD

Today is also a pretty interesting day. I get to see lots and lots of ppl in their formal. Both march and january intakers. Its either their computer principle presentation or critical thinking presentation. XD I knew that this day will come and i dont wanna be the odd one, so i decided to wear semi-formal just for the fun of it. XP

Nothing much going on.. classes are all the same.. and i was starting to dooze off during each classes. Althought i have one and a half hour break every class but i still cant get the energy to stay focus! Red Bull doesnt really help this time.. still tired.. slept during Internet Principle lecturer class and CTS class.

Internet Principle quiz is not as hard as i thought. There are actually lots of bonus questions! but the sad thing is.. i didnt study hard enough to memorize everything.. DX

I going to be very honest.. in Internet Principle class.. my best and BEST friend is.. Mr. Siva. Even he says so! XD He calls me his buddy! 8D yes, be jealous ppl! XP

After class, i spend some quality time with Winnie AKA JinHwei. XD I have to get use calling her Winnie since she has to get to calling me Klex. XP And the fact is, Winnie is her real name and mine issint. XD Spend one and half hours together. Totally worth it.. XP

So, today I know something more about Winnie. X)

Went back home and looking forward to finishing my english outline and get ready my CTS presentation outfit. Suddenly, i saw KaiShin going online.. the first time i do.. CHAT WITH HER! XD

At the same time, I know something new about KaiShin as well. XP

And thanks to her.. she makes me wanna make video covers again! Maybe i will.. really need to update my youtube account. XP

These days im want to talk back with my old friends alot. XP Talking them makes me calm my emotions more.. and i felt more relieve.. X)
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I have to stop swearing these days.. I've been swearing extremely alot! Even Winnie says so! D8 Mayb its cause my emotion unstable reasons.. but i wont find excuse. Yes, i do swear alot these days. XP

I should stop swearing.. well at least stop swearing infront of girls! XD but infront of dudes? I dont care man! XD
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Tomorrow its going to be..
- English term paper outline due date.
- CTS presentation day.
- CFCamp! D8

So, i'll not be going online for 4 days and 3 nights! What im really concern about is the camp. First time being Head of Cafe! NERVOUS! DX

Oh well.. Good luck to me. X)

More Updates!

Seriously, i running out of ideas for the names to put for the title post. XD Anyways.. heres some latest updates about my life..

College life is fine these days.. everyone's emotions are more stable right now. And i didnt even do anything! XD I think that i stable one's emotions is to give themself a time of their own. X)

How about me? To be honest.. My emotions are still not stable. I can tell that myself when i act something very furiously. This is one of the reason why i swear so much these days. (as in extra much. XP) There is some anger inside of me that is going to burst any minute. Why? Thats for you guys to figure it out why la. XD Thanks to Suilun, i manage to release some of it from my heart. X)
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I've been playing Birth By Sleep over and over again. Tired Proud Mode in BBS which is HARD as SHYT! Normal unserves also i can die! D8 Totally not my type.. This shows that I really need a new game.. XD
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If u guys actually remember i said that i have been mixing songs together to form ONE song? I actually did it! XD with the help from How Six Songs Collide as a guidance i manage to mix..

Im Yours, Collide, Superman, Here Without You, Thunder, Baby, Nothin on You, Hey Soul Sister, How to Save a Life, Tear Drops on my Guitar.

I can actually mix more if i have the time to actually look into my chord book, compose and match it up. XP
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This is something weird and random.. I had a very weird dream last night.. but its actually awesome and happy dream for me. Its a very funny dream as well. XD I dreamt about one of my old primary school friend. (its a she) XP I dream of that old friend of my exchanged college and entered my college cause she cant cope with the things she had there. The transfer to HELP and studying foundation in Science. Yes, Lim Kai Shin. Your the person that i dreamt last night. XP

Come to think of it.. its been awhile ever since i talked to her. XP
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Today, during our social sphere meeting. Me and Max are staring at the display cupboard in the leads room and we found a picture of Hannah Tan with a REAL signature on it! D8 She actually came to HELP and helped out in some sort of event.

Hannah Tan
She is HOT.. as in HOT HOT! XD

Me and Max are like.. why are we not born a few years earlier!! XD And come to think of it.. shes a 'Tan' as well! If im lucky, shes could be one of my relative.. XD but that will never happen unless the world is turning upside down. XD
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I guess thats all for now.. XP

My coming events..
-Quizes week!
-CFCamp! (im as head chef)
-Mid Terms!
-Fundraising events!

Pretty busy these days.. i hope after mid-term i can chillex around with my friends.. Not just college friends.. mayb high school friends or any other long lost friends. X)

Come to think of it.. i suddenly missed some one deeply all in the sudden.. it feels weird.. and different.. but still it makes me happy. X)