For this blogpost, i will not be mentioning names.. I shall be describing the girl of my first confession as 'first' and then second one (who is the main character of this story) as 'second'. I like to keep things alittle private and mysterious. XP Oh and pre-warned that this is going to be one hell of a long post.. Therefore the entire story will be split into multiple parts (roughly around 5 parts or lesser, depending on my mood)
If you are interested in knowing 'The First Confession' story.. Here is the link for you to start reading from part one. Fear not, the story of the first doesnt have much relation to the second one.. So, not reading the first one is fine. (but of course, it would be better and nicer of you if you were to read it! XD)
The Story of The First:
http://memoriezbeyond.blogspot.com/2012/07/my-first-part-1.html
For those of you who have missed the first part here the is link to read it! X)
The Second (Part 1): The Meeting & Knowing
The Second (Part 2): The Pathetic Chase
The Second (Part 3): Round 2, Lets Go!
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So in the year 2010 I was having my second confession to a girl whom I've been liking for about 3 years (from the time of event) Unlike my first confession, this one was setted up slightly more beautiful.. I was confessing to her during our HELP college's prom night. The place that we're at was was beautiful, the prom night event was pretty beautiful (good enough to be remembered), and of course, she was beautiful.. There would be no other time that would be more beautiful time than that moment, to confess my feelings.
Both of us are just walking around the hotel, looking at the surroundings, talking about this and that.. after that, we walked into a section of the hotel where the setting of the place was beautiful.. There was a grand piano beside us, there were beautiful lightings and pretty exotic pictures around us. Basically, the surround was pretty romantic in my opinion.. The moment we had our little short moment of silence.. I went for it. I took a deep breath, approach her and said "Hey, I just gonna say this.. I've liked you for quite sometime now.. and so, would you be my girlfriend?"
After one short paused, she gave me a smile and said 'Yes'.. The moment she said 'Yes', there was another short pause which it felt like a long long pause to me. I was hypothetically pinching myself and re-comfrim whether did she actually said the magic word. When I was done and came back to reality, I felt embarrassed and shy.. Actually both of us did. Not a word was spoken, but only embarrassing smiles on our faces. Then, she let me hold her hands, smiled at me for another time and then we both walked back into the prom room together. The moment both of us walked in, all of my friends saw both of us holding hands. They were all surprised but at the same time, very proud of me. All of my bros ran up to me and everyone congratulated and cheered for me.. That was the most beautiful night I've ever experience in my life.. And that you guys, was the story of my second confession.. X)
THE END *snap*
Alright, enough day dreaming and teasing, lets get back to reality shall we? Whatever that was written above would have happen if she said 'yes'. But her real answer was actually 'no..'
The reason was because she was still not ready to be in a relationship yet.. She was still sorta afraid to get into a relationship at that point. She said that she felt that she was still too naive and dont really understand things about relationship. I told her that I will wait for her until she is ready.. Then she told me she didnt really want me to waste my time on her cause things could change over time. Maybe later on, I might not the be person that she likes. In other words, she didnt really develop any true 'like' feelings for me.. just friends feelings.
Now, some of you guys are probably thinking "That is just an excuse for rejecting you la!". But if you actually think about it for awhile and think in a different perspective, its actually a pretty legit and acceptable reason. Besides, no rejection will ever sound nice.. So, as a real man, we just gotta accept the other's opinion, decision and just live on with it.. Which is what I did. After my confession, I could tell that she felt extremely bad for rejecting me.. She was continuously saying sorry.. I told that its okay.. gave her a smile and walked her back to the prom room. The entire journey back to the room was quiet...
So, after that short drama.. I head towards the performers changing room, sat down and think about what just happen. I was not extremely depressed yet as what just happen didnt really hit me, yet.. After sitting down for awhile, Max (a very good college friend of mine) came into the room looking for me cause i need to head to stage to get a reward as a fund raiser for the social sphere. He noticed that I was feeling a little bit depressed that moment.. Since he was the first person to ask, I told him what just happen..
After telling Max what happen, he gave me a path at the back, some works of encouragement and we both get ourselves ready to head up the stage and claim our reward as a fundraiser team for the prom night. While I was on stage collecting my reward, I look down towards the crowd and to the table where 'second' was sitting.. she was not there anymore. I guess she have left the prom night already.. When I realize that, it hit me.. depressing emotions starts flowing in.. and begin the emo nemo yuming.. ( Just to clarify, no, i didnt not cry on the stage.. nor after i went down the stage.. basically, i just didnt cry la. DX)
That night, everyone who slept over in the hotel that the prom night was held had an after prom night party. It would be great if i know how to drink during that time.. For all i know people usually drink when they are depressed after a rejection right? I thought that, if i knew how to drink, i would drink and try and wash away all those depressed feelings that I had inside.. But since I dont drink at all, I just turn in myself early.. I wouldn't want to disrupt the fun that everyone is having by listening to my sad rejection.. So, I head to bed straight while everyone else was having a great after prom night party..
Now, just like what happen to me and 'first' after my huge confession fail, I had a distance with 'second'. In a way, I thought that it would be a good way to remove the feelings I have with her for the period of time.. Thinking that I would probably go back and talk to her once im done removing the feelings towards her and moved on.
It was alittle bit difficult to keep a distance from her as both of us are in the same college. Plus, HELP is not really a big college at all. We are bound to bump into each other.. Usually I would dump my friends and spend time talking to her instead. But after that rejection, to keep our distance, I would just say hi and hang out with my friends. Basically, it was the awkward distance period for the both of us.. at least, it feels awkward for me but i dunno whether it feels different or awkward for her.. until i found a blog post written in her blog.
Now, lemme get something straight.. I have been bloggin for about 6 years now (up till today) and never had I have someone wrote one blog post just dedicated for me.. NEVER. And she was the very first girl who wrote a blog post which the main topic some what is about me.. (i think..) The blog post title is called '习惯' , translation, that means 'used to' or 'habit' or 'be accustom to'. (this is kind of a direct translation. XP) Basically, what she wrote was the things about me that she has grew accustom to all this time.. Like everytime I see her, i will pat her on the head, dump my friends and talk to her, and always start of our conversation with 'hows your day'. I never knew how much of a friend am I to her really until I read that post..
After reading the blog post that she wrote, i realized how important of a friend am I to her. When the 'distance' period happen between me and 'first', i never really knew how did 'first' felt about me.. like how important am I to her and all (until the aftermath of our story. XP) which lead to a misunderstanding between me and her.. hence, causing the drama of the 'first confession' story. 'Second' was different.. in the blog post she sorta clarify things out to avoid misunderstanding between both of us.. she was in a way writing a message to me that she didnt want me to felt that i was been 'used' all this time and she appreciate all the things that I've done to her all these time.. Those line woke me up alittle bit and touched me alittle bit inside. XP
Besides, keeping this 'distance thingy' is probably not gonna work out for me and her. Who knows, things might turn out to like what happen to 'first'? I would never want that to happen again.. More importantly, I have already planned on leaving HELP college and head over to different other universities to pursue my studies (as HELP doesnt offer game designing courses). Which means, it would be a waste of time if i keep the distance thingy going on with 'second'.. I should spend more time with her creating a couple more good memorable memories with her for our one last semester together instead..
The next day, when the moment I saw her, I head towards her and gave her a pat on the head and talk to her like we always do again. Everything felt nice once again. X)
Now, the story is not over yet.. We are sorta half way through the entire story.. But from here on, im going to drift away alittle bit from the main story.. Its still connected to 'second' in some way and its sorta the part of the story but it doesnt really involve 'second' for this short part of the story.. Just continue reading on you guys will understand what im saying.. XP
So, from what I've heard and witness myself.. another way to remove your feelings your have from someone is to look for another someone to replace it. Some people say that this phase is the infamous 'rebound' period. Now, I thought that my feelings for 'second' was pretty deep to the extend that no one would probably replace her place for quite sometime.. That is until I got close to Amy..
TO BE CONTINUE..
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
The Second (Part 3): Round 2, Lets Go!
For this blogpost, i will not be mentioning names.. I shall be describing the girl of my first confession as 'first' and then second one (who is the main character of this story) as 'second'. I like to keep things alittle private and mysterious. XP Oh and pre-warned that this is going to be one hell of a long post.. Therefore the entire story will be split into multiple parts (roughly around 5 parts or lesser, depending on my mood)
If you are interested in knowing 'The First Confession' story.. Here is the link for you to start reading from part one. Fear not, the story of the first doesnt have much relation to the second one.. So, not reading the first one is fine. (but of course, it would be better and nicer of you if you were to read it! XD)
The Story of The First:
http://memoriezbeyond.blogspot.com/2012/07/my-first-part-1.html
For those of you who have missed the first part here the is link to read it! X)
The Second (Part 1): The Meeting & Knowing
The Second (Part 2): The Pathetic Chase
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Previously in "The Second", despite how pathetic and awful my chase was in high school, some one up there decided to gimme a chance to redeem myself. 'Second' was going to the same college as I am.. And with the rumors saying that she would only want to get into a relationship after high school, means that I might actually have a shot at things.. Basically, things are just about to get very interesting.. XP
The story of us in college all started on Orientation Day. Back when I was in HELP, I joined a society called Social Sphere which is something like a student counsel group kind of thing. Anyways, one of our job as a Social Sphere memeber is to help out for the Orientation day such as being a tour guide, settling the registry and etc.. I volunteered myself to be in the tour guide section, so that I see my juniors and more importantly, see 'second' and hopefully become her tour guide. XP
At first I wanted to pick a group where 'second' was in.. But later on, I found out that we are not given the chance to pick the groups that we are going to tour guiding. Which means, everything is gonna go random.. To be honest, I was a little disappointing but a job is a job.. Well at least I could see my future juniors or about someone interesting (which will be introduced later on in the story..)
Group by group, students are walking out from the auditorium to meet their tour guide. And then, it was my turn to meet the group of college students.. One by one unfamiliar face gather around and stood infront of me.. Then, I saw one of the last few person who walked out from the hall was her! 8D (Seriously, all of this might sound like some magical korean drama stuffs BUT it really did happen!) I was alittle bit nervous cause I was my first time bringing a bunch of college students for a tour guide of a college that honestly im not very familiar with as well. But anyone would be EXTRA nervous when one of the people who are tour guided is your crush. No worries, everything went well and according to 'second', I did a good job being a tour guide that day. XP
And after that day, begins the story of both of us in HELP and of course my round 2 chase for 'second'. XP Now, I wouldnt say that my chase improved tremendously after high school.. but I have to say my chance and opportunities are just much better compared to last time. I get to meet her more often and spend more time with her compared to last time. And more importantly, not love rivals (i think) around to intercept or demoralize me but myself! >XD
Sometimes, when she would be alone around the corridor doing her assignment, I would just sit beside her just to keep her company. She will sometimes ask "Wont you feel bored sitting beside me, watching me studying?". Every time she ask me that, I would either not answer her or I would give her an excuse like "Im waiting for a friend" just so I could spend some time with her. I can just sit down there and do nothing but pay close attention to her and not feel bored about it at all.
Being in the same college and same course also means that we would have a chance on having same classes with one another. Now, throughout my entire foundation years with her, I have never had a class with her.. We have same subjects but just in a different class.. But still, We would share tips for quizes with each other about the subject and together-gather be paranoid before the quiz. If we have a same lecturer with a same subject, we would share little bits of stories of what happen in the class and give heads up to one another if the lecturer is not in a good mood that day. X)
Of course, walking was still the thing for both of us even in college. When both of us have breaks or have nothing to do, we would walk the entire HELP main campus corridor We will walk and talk all the way to end of the corridor and after that all the way back to the main entrance again.. this process will repeat about 2 times until one of us gets tired and decided to sit down and continue the conversation. Sometimes, we would take the bus home together and I'll walk her home after that. And of course, the other thing that really didnt change one bit, is the awkward silent moments.. At least the more we talk, the number of awkward silence decreases. XP
Basically, spending time with her in college was just amazing.. I have never been this close to someone I like.. Not even compare to 'first'. But eventho I feel that both of us are doing very well keep close to each other, i was still uncertain about the timing to confess to her. I was very cautious about her feelings towards. We are close, but are we close to the extend that we are more than just normal close friends? It would just be waaaay to risky to just confess without are solid reliable comfirmation but at the same time, it would be a waste of time if i dont do something about it as foundation is only a one year course.
My friends around me thinks that we are close enough to be in a relationship already.. but that is just coming from my friends. They could be just saying nice things to boost my confidence. Thru out this whole time with her in HELP, there was a flaw in my chase.. which is not getting close to any of her close friends in college. If I was close to any of her college friends, I could at least get a clearer understanding of her feelings. But since I didnt take much effort to get close to pretty much any of her close friends, I was suffering in confusion.. until prom night..
Prom night was pretty amazing.. The theme, the food, the music, the entertainment its pretty good I would have to say. Maybe its I've never experience prom night before. (Yes, that was my very first prom night) But anyways, the key point of the story was she attended the prom night as well. The theme of the night was "Beaute Et La Mode", which means something like 'fashion is beauty' (i cant really remember. DX) and so, I was one of the models who is going to be doing the fashion show for the night.. So, in other words, it was a pretty busy night for me.. But thru out the whole time, I couldnt wait to get the job done and go out and meet my friends. The other thing was, I couldnt help thinking how would she look like in her dress? XD
The moment I was done with the performance, I change my cloths in the proper suit up attire and immediately head towards the hall where everyone was at. After that, I was assign with a second job which is to walk around and talk to people (something I do best~ XD) to check and see how are they doing for the night. And then, I saw her. She was sitting at a table with all her friends.. and any guys that saw their crush in prom dress would probably say the same thing.. "She was beautiful". It was the first time I've ever seen her dress up that way. She was so beautiful to the extend that I actually became shy to even walk up to her and talk to her.
Normally, at the end of prom night, they shud have those lovely dovey slow dancing music playing for people to dance with someone they like.. but our prom night did something known as the after party. Instead of playing slow dancing song, the DJ plays hardcore club dancing music. I wanted to ask her out on to the dance floor dance or maybe just move around since she never have this kind of dancing experience before. But she didnt want to cause the music was just waaaay too loud for her and she was shy. So instead, we both decided to head out and walk around the hotel.
As we both are walking and talking, I notice the hotel was beautiful. The setup of the place was actually pretty romantic in my opinion. We then walked into an area which I felt was suitable and there were just both of us in that area alone. The place was right, the moment was right, and I couldnt stress this enough.. she was beautiful. Everything just felt perfectly right.. So without any hesitation, I confessed to her on the spot..
TO BE CONTINUE (should have seen this coming eh? XD)
Click Here to Read Part 4!
If you are interested in knowing 'The First Confession' story.. Here is the link for you to start reading from part one. Fear not, the story of the first doesnt have much relation to the second one.. So, not reading the first one is fine. (but of course, it would be better and nicer of you if you were to read it! XD)
The Story of The First:
http://memoriezbeyond.blogspot.com/2012/07/my-first-part-1.html
For those of you who have missed the first part here the is link to read it! X)
The Second (Part 1): The Meeting & Knowing
The Second (Part 2): The Pathetic Chase
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Previously in "The Second", despite how pathetic and awful my chase was in high school, some one up there decided to gimme a chance to redeem myself. 'Second' was going to the same college as I am.. And with the rumors saying that she would only want to get into a relationship after high school, means that I might actually have a shot at things.. Basically, things are just about to get very interesting.. XP
The story of us in college all started on Orientation Day. Back when I was in HELP, I joined a society called Social Sphere which is something like a student counsel group kind of thing. Anyways, one of our job as a Social Sphere memeber is to help out for the Orientation day such as being a tour guide, settling the registry and etc.. I volunteered myself to be in the tour guide section, so that I see my juniors and more importantly, see 'second' and hopefully become her tour guide. XP
At first I wanted to pick a group where 'second' was in.. But later on, I found out that we are not given the chance to pick the groups that we are going to tour guiding. Which means, everything is gonna go random.. To be honest, I was a little disappointing but a job is a job.. Well at least I could see my future juniors or about someone interesting (which will be introduced later on in the story..)
Group by group, students are walking out from the auditorium to meet their tour guide. And then, it was my turn to meet the group of college students.. One by one unfamiliar face gather around and stood infront of me.. Then, I saw one of the last few person who walked out from the hall was her! 8D (Seriously, all of this might sound like some magical korean drama stuffs BUT it really did happen!) I was alittle bit nervous cause I was my first time bringing a bunch of college students for a tour guide of a college that honestly im not very familiar with as well. But anyone would be EXTRA nervous when one of the people who are tour guided is your crush. No worries, everything went well and according to 'second', I did a good job being a tour guide that day. XP
And after that day, begins the story of both of us in HELP and of course my round 2 chase for 'second'. XP Now, I wouldnt say that my chase improved tremendously after high school.. but I have to say my chance and opportunities are just much better compared to last time. I get to meet her more often and spend more time with her compared to last time. And more importantly, not love rivals (i think) around to intercept or demoralize me but myself! >XD
Sometimes, when she would be alone around the corridor doing her assignment, I would just sit beside her just to keep her company. She will sometimes ask "Wont you feel bored sitting beside me, watching me studying?". Every time she ask me that, I would either not answer her or I would give her an excuse like "Im waiting for a friend" just so I could spend some time with her. I can just sit down there and do nothing but pay close attention to her and not feel bored about it at all.
Being in the same college and same course also means that we would have a chance on having same classes with one another. Now, throughout my entire foundation years with her, I have never had a class with her.. We have same subjects but just in a different class.. But still, We would share tips for quizes with each other about the subject and together-gather be paranoid before the quiz. If we have a same lecturer with a same subject, we would share little bits of stories of what happen in the class and give heads up to one another if the lecturer is not in a good mood that day. X)
Of course, walking was still the thing for both of us even in college. When both of us have breaks or have nothing to do, we would walk the entire HELP main campus corridor We will walk and talk all the way to end of the corridor and after that all the way back to the main entrance again.. this process will repeat about 2 times until one of us gets tired and decided to sit down and continue the conversation. Sometimes, we would take the bus home together and I'll walk her home after that. And of course, the other thing that really didnt change one bit, is the awkward silent moments.. At least the more we talk, the number of awkward silence decreases. XP
Basically, spending time with her in college was just amazing.. I have never been this close to someone I like.. Not even compare to 'first'. But eventho I feel that both of us are doing very well keep close to each other, i was still uncertain about the timing to confess to her. I was very cautious about her feelings towards. We are close, but are we close to the extend that we are more than just normal close friends? It would just be waaaay to risky to just confess without are solid reliable comfirmation but at the same time, it would be a waste of time if i dont do something about it as foundation is only a one year course.
My friends around me thinks that we are close enough to be in a relationship already.. but that is just coming from my friends. They could be just saying nice things to boost my confidence. Thru out this whole time with her in HELP, there was a flaw in my chase.. which is not getting close to any of her close friends in college. If I was close to any of her college friends, I could at least get a clearer understanding of her feelings. But since I didnt take much effort to get close to pretty much any of her close friends, I was suffering in confusion.. until prom night..
Prom night was pretty amazing.. The theme, the food, the music, the entertainment its pretty good I would have to say. Maybe its I've never experience prom night before. (Yes, that was my very first prom night) But anyways, the key point of the story was she attended the prom night as well. The theme of the night was "Beaute Et La Mode", which means something like 'fashion is beauty' (i cant really remember. DX) and so, I was one of the models who is going to be doing the fashion show for the night.. So, in other words, it was a pretty busy night for me.. But thru out the whole time, I couldnt wait to get the job done and go out and meet my friends. The other thing was, I couldnt help thinking how would she look like in her dress? XD
The moment I was done with the performance, I change my cloths in the proper suit up attire and immediately head towards the hall where everyone was at. After that, I was assign with a second job which is to walk around and talk to people (something I do best~ XD) to check and see how are they doing for the night. And then, I saw her. She was sitting at a table with all her friends.. and any guys that saw their crush in prom dress would probably say the same thing.. "She was beautiful". It was the first time I've ever seen her dress up that way. She was so beautiful to the extend that I actually became shy to even walk up to her and talk to her.
Normally, at the end of prom night, they shud have those lovely dovey slow dancing music playing for people to dance with someone they like.. but our prom night did something known as the after party. Instead of playing slow dancing song, the DJ plays hardcore club dancing music. I wanted to ask her out on to the dance floor dance or maybe just move around since she never have this kind of dancing experience before. But she didnt want to cause the music was just waaaay too loud for her and she was shy. So instead, we both decided to head out and walk around the hotel.
As we both are walking and talking, I notice the hotel was beautiful. The setup of the place was actually pretty romantic in my opinion. We then walked into an area which I felt was suitable and there were just both of us in that area alone. The place was right, the moment was right, and I couldnt stress this enough.. she was beautiful. Everything just felt perfectly right.. So without any hesitation, I confessed to her on the spot..
TO BE CONTINUE (should have seen this coming eh? XD)
Click Here to Read Part 4!
Friday, April 19, 2013
The Second (Part 2): The Pathetic Chase
For this blogpost, i will not be mentioning names.. I shall be describing the girl of my first confession as 'first' and then second one (who is the main character of this story) as 'second'. I like to keep things alittle private and mysterious. XP Oh and pre-warned that this is going to be one hell of a long post.. Therefore the entire story will be split into multiple parts (roughly around 5 parts or lesser, depending on my mood)
If you are interested in knowing 'The First Confession' story.. Here is the link for you to start reading from part one. Fear not, the story of the first doesnt have much relation to the second one.. So, not reading the first one is fine. (but of course, it would be better and nicer of you if you were to read it! XD)
The Story of The First:
http://memoriezbeyond.blogspot.com/2012/07/my-first-part-1.html
For those of you who have missed the first part here the is link to read it! X)
The Second (Part 1): The Meeting & Knowing
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So, at the age of 16, the 4th year im in high school, form 4, i have realized that I have develop feelings for 'second'. The quiet little girl which my first intention of talking to her is to bring her out from her study zone, slowly turned out to be another thing.
Now, i remember mentioning alittle bit about it before, but 'second' was a pretty popular girl back then. And due to that, I realize have quite a number of rivals around me. And the funny part is that I know almost ALL of them. I guess that probably explains the reason why im not close to any of them even until today. (except one which I will introduce to you guys later on in the story. XP)
With the intensive amount of rivals around me, it will probably be a dumb idea to just rush in the chase race without doing any research. Lucky for me, I already had a small head start which is knowing and getting close to her close friends (and double lucky cause one of them is apparently my close friend's gf. XP) But later, I got a HUGE information which will totally change my whole game plan. Apparently, 'second' doesnt want to get into a relationship until she graduate from high school. That kinda sucks cause i will probably only get to stick around with her until high school only. With that, I decided to just go for the chase race, try to score some points and who knows, with my kindness and maybe.. JUST maybe my good looks and charms things might change her mind set?
Even so, my chase towards her was pathetically weak.. Compared to my other rivals, my moves are ALMOST un-noticeable. According to her, she said that she could barely notice that I was actually chasing after her until her friends actually told her about it.
The only good move that I think I actually did was during Valentines day. That day, I actually wanted to do something really special for her.. Like buy her something or just do something impressive that could score some points for my chase. I kept on thinking, thinking and thinking and finally, I over thinked and in the end i couldnt find anything that I can do to impress her. I guess I was alittle bit too last minute to prepare for her anything. Things became alittle bit more demoralizing on valentines day.. I saw many of my rivals DID something. One of them bought her a whole bouquet of rose. Another one actually gave it to her infront of the class. Looking at how my other rivals have executed their plans for her on valentines day, I got demoralized hence, i got emo.
After school, I walked her home and the more we walked the more i started think about the things that I should have done.. Spending that little short walk distance with her was nice, and that short moment really made me feel like doing at least something for her for valentines day. The day is not over yet, so its still not too late to do something for her. So, on the way home i dropped by a cake shop and found a valentines day special chocolate cake which is selling for RM3. Coincidencely all i have in my wallet that time was RM3. So without any hesitation, i bought the cake.
Next is to give the cake to her, which is another problem to me.. I was scare that giving her the cake face to face would give her the idea and impression that Im chasing after her. (logically, i am SUPPOSE to give her the impression but i was stupid back then so yeah..) If that happens, i was worried that things will be different between us like maybe she will start avoiding me or something. So, I thought that giving to her face to face is a bad idea (again stupid me..) If I cant give her face to face, then how am i suppose to give it to her then? giving to her parents will be SUPER AWKWARD, giving to her maid should be fine but what are the odds of that happening? So, I decided to left it outside her house, near the front gate.. And the plan was to call her to inform her that there is a cake outside for her..
Now, like i mentioned this valentines gift was an extremely last minute plan. So, i really wasnt going thru my head while planning for this thing. My initial plan was to go home, grab the phone, call her and tell her that there is a cake outside.. BUT it takes me about 20minutes to go home. In 20 minutes, ANYTHING COULD HAPPEN!! Like what if it rains half way while im walking home? She will have a chocolate drink instead of a cake. Or like what if the sun is so sunny to the extend that it melted the cake? Then that case she will have chocolate soup to drink! I was quite a distance away from her house already, going back and grab the cake might be alittle bit awkward, what if she catches me do it!? D8
So I start doing the thinking in my head.. Then I remembered talking to a friend of mine while walking back home. Coincidencely, she lived just around the neighbor hood. I immediately head over to her place, ring on the door bell and ask her for help. She was with a friend (who is also a friend of mine) hanging out and getting ready to go somewhere. So, i was pretty lucky that they are still around. The new plan is to borrow her house phone to make a phone call to 'second' to let her know that there is a Valentines Day cake gift sitting right outside her house. Just as i was about to make the phone call, I forgotten about the most important thing.. her phone number. I have her phone number in my cellphone but my cellphone is not with me. (I was a good boy who dont bring his cell phone to school) BUT lucky for me, my friend's friend who is also a librarian have 'second's number (oh thank god!) so, initiate the plan, call her, tell her that there is a cake outside her house and lastly, wish her happy valentines day..
I dunno whether that whole small part of the story was actually romantic or not. I was not even sure myself whether what I did was romantic or not!? All I know that, i was really really messy. XD But the two friends of mine who witness the whole thing said that it was extremely sweet. So, oh well.. good enough~ Other than that, there is pretty much nothing which is sweet and romantic anymore.
Now, I dont know about my rivals but there is a little 'something' that always kept me and 'second' on going. And thanks to that 'something', that is pretty much how me and 'second' really developed our bond and friendship. That 'something' is called walking. Yeap, walking has always been part of our routine, and it is probably the only 'something' that I have with her that stands out between me and my rivals. Cause from what I know and what i heard, not many guys have the privilege to get to walk home with her. Not just walk home, just the chance to get to walk with her to places was already good enough.
Anyways, like i said.. my chase was pretty pathetic compared to the other guys.. more importantly, SPM was just around the corner. If i spend too much time thinking of chasing after her, then I would most probably flunk my SPM papers and resit my entire form 5 life. (noooooo...) Besides, she will most probably be busy studying for SPM as well. So, i decided to stop down on the chase and focus more on SPM.
Lets skip the story alittle bit forward shall we? Cause during this time frame, there is really nothing interesting happening between both of us but just study study study. So lets fast forward all the way to the day we got our SPM results shall we? Now, on SPM results day, we met each other again after the long after SPM break.. During that long break, we did keep in touch thru texting but that time i was in HELP doing my foundation and she was working that time.. So both of us are pretty busy in a our own way. Sadly, it was not much different even on SPM results day. I didnt really get the chance to talk to her much.. After she got her results, she was either on the phone with someone or snapping pictures with other people. (again, I cannot stress this enuf, she was popular. XP) Besides, I have my own things to do as well that day. After the whole thing, I was thinking of accompanying her back home but I still have classes to attend that day, so I have to head back to HELP ASAP.
So, the day that we got our SPM results, was the probably the last day that we will meet each other.. Well, thats what I thought at first. A few days after the SPM results day, one night, she called me. (Or was it I called her? This one both of us are not very sure about it either. BUT for the sake of continue-ing this story and to make it sound better for my side *muahaha* lets just leave it this way~XD) The phone conversation was pretty long because besides doing ALOT of catching up, we also discussing about college stuffs. Apparently, she is still have trouble deciding what and where she wants to study. So, as a HELP student, I suggest to her HELP and do foundation as well~ XD
A few weeks after that phone conversation we had that day, she called me and told me that she decided to go to HELP and do foundations as well! The moment when I hear her say that, you guys have no idea how happy and excited I was.. Despite, how bad our communication was all this time and how bad my chase performance was back in high school, someone up there decided to give me this second chance to redeem myself. Plus, both of us are college students.. So things are going to get much more interesting..
TO BE CONTINUE..
CLICK HERE TO READ PART 3!
If you are interested in knowing 'The First Confession' story.. Here is the link for you to start reading from part one. Fear not, the story of the first doesnt have much relation to the second one.. So, not reading the first one is fine. (but of course, it would be better and nicer of you if you were to read it! XD)
The Story of The First:
http://memoriezbeyond.blogspot.com/2012/07/my-first-part-1.html
For those of you who have missed the first part here the is link to read it! X)
The Second (Part 1): The Meeting & Knowing
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So, at the age of 16, the 4th year im in high school, form 4, i have realized that I have develop feelings for 'second'. The quiet little girl which my first intention of talking to her is to bring her out from her study zone, slowly turned out to be another thing.
Now, i remember mentioning alittle bit about it before, but 'second' was a pretty popular girl back then. And due to that, I realize have quite a number of rivals around me. And the funny part is that I know almost ALL of them. I guess that probably explains the reason why im not close to any of them even until today. (except one which I will introduce to you guys later on in the story. XP)
With the intensive amount of rivals around me, it will probably be a dumb idea to just rush in the chase race without doing any research. Lucky for me, I already had a small head start which is knowing and getting close to her close friends (and double lucky cause one of them is apparently my close friend's gf. XP) But later, I got a HUGE information which will totally change my whole game plan. Apparently, 'second' doesnt want to get into a relationship until she graduate from high school. That kinda sucks cause i will probably only get to stick around with her until high school only. With that, I decided to just go for the chase race, try to score some points and who knows, with my kindness and maybe.. JUST maybe my good looks and charms things might change her mind set?
Even so, my chase towards her was pathetically weak.. Compared to my other rivals, my moves are ALMOST un-noticeable. According to her, she said that she could barely notice that I was actually chasing after her until her friends actually told her about it.
The only good move that I think I actually did was during Valentines day. That day, I actually wanted to do something really special for her.. Like buy her something or just do something impressive that could score some points for my chase. I kept on thinking, thinking and thinking and finally, I over thinked and in the end i couldnt find anything that I can do to impress her. I guess I was alittle bit too last minute to prepare for her anything. Things became alittle bit more demoralizing on valentines day.. I saw many of my rivals DID something. One of them bought her a whole bouquet of rose. Another one actually gave it to her infront of the class. Looking at how my other rivals have executed their plans for her on valentines day, I got demoralized hence, i got emo.
After school, I walked her home and the more we walked the more i started think about the things that I should have done.. Spending that little short walk distance with her was nice, and that short moment really made me feel like doing at least something for her for valentines day. The day is not over yet, so its still not too late to do something for her. So, on the way home i dropped by a cake shop and found a valentines day special chocolate cake which is selling for RM3. Coincidencely all i have in my wallet that time was RM3. So without any hesitation, i bought the cake.
Next is to give the cake to her, which is another problem to me.. I was scare that giving her the cake face to face would give her the idea and impression that Im chasing after her. (logically, i am SUPPOSE to give her the impression but i was stupid back then so yeah..) If that happens, i was worried that things will be different between us like maybe she will start avoiding me or something. So, I thought that giving to her face to face is a bad idea (again stupid me..) If I cant give her face to face, then how am i suppose to give it to her then? giving to her parents will be SUPER AWKWARD, giving to her maid should be fine but what are the odds of that happening? So, I decided to left it outside her house, near the front gate.. And the plan was to call her to inform her that there is a cake outside for her..
Now, like i mentioned this valentines gift was an extremely last minute plan. So, i really wasnt going thru my head while planning for this thing. My initial plan was to go home, grab the phone, call her and tell her that there is a cake outside.. BUT it takes me about 20minutes to go home. In 20 minutes, ANYTHING COULD HAPPEN!! Like what if it rains half way while im walking home? She will have a chocolate drink instead of a cake. Or like what if the sun is so sunny to the extend that it melted the cake? Then that case she will have chocolate soup to drink! I was quite a distance away from her house already, going back and grab the cake might be alittle bit awkward, what if she catches me do it!? D8
So I start doing the thinking in my head.. Then I remembered talking to a friend of mine while walking back home. Coincidencely, she lived just around the neighbor hood. I immediately head over to her place, ring on the door bell and ask her for help. She was with a friend (who is also a friend of mine) hanging out and getting ready to go somewhere. So, i was pretty lucky that they are still around. The new plan is to borrow her house phone to make a phone call to 'second' to let her know that there is a Valentines Day cake gift sitting right outside her house. Just as i was about to make the phone call, I forgotten about the most important thing.. her phone number. I have her phone number in my cellphone but my cellphone is not with me. (I was a good boy who dont bring his cell phone to school) BUT lucky for me, my friend's friend who is also a librarian have 'second's number (oh thank god!) so, initiate the plan, call her, tell her that there is a cake outside her house and lastly, wish her happy valentines day..
I dunno whether that whole small part of the story was actually romantic or not. I was not even sure myself whether what I did was romantic or not!? All I know that, i was really really messy. XD But the two friends of mine who witness the whole thing said that it was extremely sweet. So, oh well.. good enough~ Other than that, there is pretty much nothing which is sweet and romantic anymore.
Now, I dont know about my rivals but there is a little 'something' that always kept me and 'second' on going. And thanks to that 'something', that is pretty much how me and 'second' really developed our bond and friendship. That 'something' is called walking. Yeap, walking has always been part of our routine, and it is probably the only 'something' that I have with her that stands out between me and my rivals. Cause from what I know and what i heard, not many guys have the privilege to get to walk home with her. Not just walk home, just the chance to get to walk with her to places was already good enough.
Anyways, like i said.. my chase was pretty pathetic compared to the other guys.. more importantly, SPM was just around the corner. If i spend too much time thinking of chasing after her, then I would most probably flunk my SPM papers and resit my entire form 5 life. (noooooo...) Besides, she will most probably be busy studying for SPM as well. So, i decided to stop down on the chase and focus more on SPM.
Lets skip the story alittle bit forward shall we? Cause during this time frame, there is really nothing interesting happening between both of us but just study study study. So lets fast forward all the way to the day we got our SPM results shall we? Now, on SPM results day, we met each other again after the long after SPM break.. During that long break, we did keep in touch thru texting but that time i was in HELP doing my foundation and she was working that time.. So both of us are pretty busy in a our own way. Sadly, it was not much different even on SPM results day. I didnt really get the chance to talk to her much.. After she got her results, she was either on the phone with someone or snapping pictures with other people. (again, I cannot stress this enuf, she was popular. XP) Besides, I have my own things to do as well that day. After the whole thing, I was thinking of accompanying her back home but I still have classes to attend that day, so I have to head back to HELP ASAP.
So, the day that we got our SPM results, was the probably the last day that we will meet each other.. Well, thats what I thought at first. A few days after the SPM results day, one night, she called me. (Or was it I called her? This one both of us are not very sure about it either. BUT for the sake of continue-ing this story and to make it sound better for my side *muahaha* lets just leave it this way~XD) The phone conversation was pretty long because besides doing ALOT of catching up, we also discussing about college stuffs. Apparently, she is still have trouble deciding what and where she wants to study. So, as a HELP student, I suggest to her HELP and do foundation as well~ XD
A few weeks after that phone conversation we had that day, she called me and told me that she decided to go to HELP and do foundations as well! The moment when I hear her say that, you guys have no idea how happy and excited I was.. Despite, how bad our communication was all this time and how bad my chase performance was back in high school, someone up there decided to give me this second chance to redeem myself. Plus, both of us are college students.. So things are going to get much more interesting..
TO BE CONTINUE..
CLICK HERE TO READ PART 3!
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Threat
Have you ever become a threat before? When i say threat, im not saying like your a gangster going around, kicking asses, bullying people, killing people, people are scared of you, police are afraid of you and they think that your a THREAT. Nope, im not talking about that kind of threat.. im talking about a much more smaller and harmless threat. XD
So, the other night me and my friends are sitting down together to have midnight supper session (aka 'yumcha' session) and we are just chilling sitting down and talking some guy stuffs and all. Then suddenly, one my friend brought up a topic and the whole conversation became more like a confession moment. It wasnt really like a confession moment like telling each other secret things, its more like telling each other "do you know?" that kind of thing? Get it?
Anyways, we continue on with the "do you know" topics.. Then, one of my friend told me this.. "Klex, do u know that I used to think that you are a threat?" Yeap, you guys didnt read it wrong nor was there any typo. The guy said that i was a threat. I was alittle bit confused with what he just said, and then he explained "Back then, before I was going out with (name shall not be mentioned here), i thought that you are going to get her before me wei!"
Then everything is starting to make alittle bit of sense.. Now, you see back then when i was in HELP, i talked to alot of people. I was a pretty socialable guy (unlike how am I today) so, I made friends with this girl who is currrently my friend's (the guy that i was having conversation with) girlfriend today. Before both of them are dating, both me and the girl have pretty similar time tables when I was still in HELP.. Therefore, we both hang out pretty often back then.
Apparently, I was close to her to the extend that my friend thought that i was going to be his love rival and I was a 'threat' since I was alittle bit more closer to her than he is. In a way, it gave him an impression that I have a 'head start' in the chase race. But I do have to admit that both of us DO look like something was going on.. Cause once in awhile, me and the girl will video msn each other and talk.. or sometimes she will come to me and go for lunch. I really wouldnt blame the guy if he really thinks that I was a 'threat' beside, I've been into his position before..
Now, I did said that everything is start to make alittle bit of sense but the truth is, all the while the girl was trying to grab information about the guy (my friend). Some time, when she went online and chat, whenever we hit a conversation related to relationship or guys, she will ask me "So, what do you think of (name not going to be mention here)?". The lunch with her moments are just a friendly thing that college students do with one another. Besides, it was not a one on one lunch session.. so its not like a date or anything..
Since, she was kinda into my friend, I did help to try and match make both of them.. But that time I was alittle busy trying to even match make myself to someone.. After awhile, both of time started to hang out with each other more and more, and one thing lead to another.. A new couple of born! XD
After hearing everything, my friend felt alittle bit relieve.. Cause he thought that I was going after her (even know back then he knew who was I actually going after). At the end of the night, the guy pat me on the back and said "Thank You bro.. Thank you for everything.." X)
If and ONLY if some of you guys are wondering.. Yes, they are still together.. Still a pretty healthy relationship. But it was alittle surprising that I was look as a 'threat' to other people.. Cause all this while, I thought I was the only person who will think guys who are close to the person I like are 'threats'. I guess all guys will actually feel that way when it comes to chasing someone you really like. X)
CHEERS~ XD
So, the other night me and my friends are sitting down together to have midnight supper session (aka 'yumcha' session) and we are just chilling sitting down and talking some guy stuffs and all. Then suddenly, one my friend brought up a topic and the whole conversation became more like a confession moment. It wasnt really like a confession moment like telling each other secret things, its more like telling each other "do you know?" that kind of thing? Get it?
Anyways, we continue on with the "do you know" topics.. Then, one of my friend told me this.. "Klex, do u know that I used to think that you are a threat?" Yeap, you guys didnt read it wrong nor was there any typo. The guy said that i was a threat. I was alittle bit confused with what he just said, and then he explained "Back then, before I was going out with (name shall not be mentioned here), i thought that you are going to get her before me wei!"
Then everything is starting to make alittle bit of sense.. Now, you see back then when i was in HELP, i talked to alot of people. I was a pretty socialable guy (unlike how am I today) so, I made friends with this girl who is currrently my friend's (the guy that i was having conversation with) girlfriend today. Before both of them are dating, both me and the girl have pretty similar time tables when I was still in HELP.. Therefore, we both hang out pretty often back then.
Apparently, I was close to her to the extend that my friend thought that i was going to be his love rival and I was a 'threat' since I was alittle bit more closer to her than he is. In a way, it gave him an impression that I have a 'head start' in the chase race. But I do have to admit that both of us DO look like something was going on.. Cause once in awhile, me and the girl will video msn each other and talk.. or sometimes she will come to me and go for lunch. I really wouldnt blame the guy if he really thinks that I was a 'threat' beside, I've been into his position before..
Now, I did said that everything is start to make alittle bit of sense but the truth is, all the while the girl was trying to grab information about the guy (my friend). Some time, when she went online and chat, whenever we hit a conversation related to relationship or guys, she will ask me "So, what do you think of (name not going to be mention here)?". The lunch with her moments are just a friendly thing that college students do with one another. Besides, it was not a one on one lunch session.. so its not like a date or anything..
Since, she was kinda into my friend, I did help to try and match make both of them.. But that time I was alittle busy trying to even match make myself to someone.. After awhile, both of time started to hang out with each other more and more, and one thing lead to another.. A new couple of born! XD
After hearing everything, my friend felt alittle bit relieve.. Cause he thought that I was going after her (even know back then he knew who was I actually going after). At the end of the night, the guy pat me on the back and said "Thank You bro.. Thank you for everything.." X)
If and ONLY if some of you guys are wondering.. Yes, they are still together.. Still a pretty healthy relationship. But it was alittle surprising that I was look as a 'threat' to other people.. Cause all this while, I thought I was the only person who will think guys who are close to the person I like are 'threats'. I guess all guys will actually feel that way when it comes to chasing someone you really like. X)
CHEERS~ XD
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Howdy~
Hello everyone.. How are you guys doing? *trying to act like nothing happened*
Alright, alright.. I know I havent been bloggin for a very long time.. like a very LONG time. Two months by far is the longest break that I ever had since I started bloggin. So here it is again, a blog post of excuses about "WHY I HAVENT BEEN BLOGGIN FOR TWO MONTH"
One and of course the MOST crucial reason is because university is back! Yeap, hell chapter 4! (aka 4th semester) It sucks to know that I have to go back to university and stress myself up with all the assignments and all again.. (but not presentation, presentation as ALWAYS fun. XD) Gonna miss the days of working with my manager in the shop and the long relaxing holidays that I had.. But hey, on the bright side i get to hang out with my good old uni buddies again and just think about it, 2 more semesters of this shyt hole and IM OUT OF HERE!! (that is of course if i didnt fail any subjects la.. *cross fingers*)
As you all know that gaming has been pretty much a big part of my life.. and back a few months ago I was working in a game shop (which is also another minor reason that i didnt blog for the first couple of weeks before I start uni life agian. XP) Anyways, so i've been keeping in touch with games stuffs. I've been busy doing research about up coming games and of course, watching and reading reviews about them as well. Not really because its was part of my job to know the games but I am personally interested in the games. I was so caught up about it that I even flip back to the old games that I've always wanted to play and read about it. Yes, u read that right, I said read. I didnt actually played the games but i read about it. I guess game stuffs are the only thing that I bear to read about it. XD
Oh speaking about games, I bought myself my very own original game.. And its an ONLINE game. (FYI, this is another MAJOR reason why didnt blog. XP) The game is called Guild Wars 2, great game and its pretty addictive. Me and my friends have been playing with it for quite some time and I have pretty much been focusing on the game for the most of my time. Therefore, my free time are usually occupied by this new game. Hence, no bloggin. XP Oh yeah, its also the first original game that i bought with my own money. So, psychologically to me it would sound like im wasting my money if i dont play the game. (first world problems of a gamer. DX) So yeah, u can say that i am current in a committed relationship with this game. DX
And speaking of spending money, I also bought myself another thing with my very own money. I bought myself a new phone and FINALLY, i got myself an Android phone. Friends have been buggin me to buy some so that my life would be beutiful. If you guys are interested in knowing, the phone i bought was called "Ninetology Black Pearl 2" and its a Malaysia brand phone. (google that for more information) The phone's price was RM599 originally but thanks to the government rebate and my brother's help I got the phone for just RM299. (sweet!)
So yeah, with that i've pretty much join the dark side where people will be spending half of their times with their smart phone and stuffs. And i cannot stress this enough im a gamer so of course my phone will be filled with games which again will occupy most of my free time again. XP
Besides that, the non-anti social and out going thing that I've done which is also the reason why I didnt blog is that I've been going around telling stories to people during the 2 months time. For some reason, people are very interested in the story the 'second'. Maybe cause the 'second' story happened pretty recently.. thats why people are dead curious about how things happened and all. But not just 'second' story is getting all the attention, the 'first' story is still pretty popular. I've been travelling to different places to share my stories to people who are interested in. The most epic one was probably the one I have to go all the way just to Sunway Pyramid to share a story to a friend of mine. But she was not alone, she was along with her friends and her juniors (total 5 of them) and I share the whole story to all of them.Yeah, im starting to think of making a career out of story telling. No kidding.
But really, i would like to thank everyone who are interested in my stories and also cared enough to comment and give feedbacks about it. It was a great pleasure to just share the little story of mine to you guys. I hope you guys have fun listening to it cause I really really have fun telling the story. X) And yes, for those of you who are still waiting for the part 2 of the 'second' story, I will TRY and find some time to work on it la. Dont worry, I've been telling the story so many time to the extend I think I will not miss any parts out anymore. XD So be patient and wait for it alright? XP
I guess that enough for one update eh? gotta start working on my assignments and also try and at least finish 2nd part of the 'second'. NEED MOTIVATION!! DX XD
CHEERS! XD
Alright, alright.. I know I havent been bloggin for a very long time.. like a very LONG time. Two months by far is the longest break that I ever had since I started bloggin. So here it is again, a blog post of excuses about "WHY I HAVENT BEEN BLOGGIN FOR TWO MONTH"
One and of course the MOST crucial reason is because university is back! Yeap, hell chapter 4! (aka 4th semester) It sucks to know that I have to go back to university and stress myself up with all the assignments and all again.. (but not presentation, presentation as ALWAYS fun. XD) Gonna miss the days of working with my manager in the shop and the long relaxing holidays that I had.. But hey, on the bright side i get to hang out with my good old uni buddies again and just think about it, 2 more semesters of this shyt hole and IM OUT OF HERE!! (that is of course if i didnt fail any subjects la.. *cross fingers*)
As you all know that gaming has been pretty much a big part of my life.. and back a few months ago I was working in a game shop (which is also another minor reason that i didnt blog for the first couple of weeks before I start uni life agian. XP) Anyways, so i've been keeping in touch with games stuffs. I've been busy doing research about up coming games and of course, watching and reading reviews about them as well. Not really because its was part of my job to know the games but I am personally interested in the games. I was so caught up about it that I even flip back to the old games that I've always wanted to play and read about it. Yes, u read that right, I said read. I didnt actually played the games but i read about it. I guess game stuffs are the only thing that I bear to read about it. XD
Oh speaking about games, I bought myself my very own original game.. And its an ONLINE game. (FYI, this is another MAJOR reason why didnt blog. XP) The game is called Guild Wars 2, great game and its pretty addictive. Me and my friends have been playing with it for quite some time and I have pretty much been focusing on the game for the most of my time. Therefore, my free time are usually occupied by this new game. Hence, no bloggin. XP Oh yeah, its also the first original game that i bought with my own money. So, psychologically to me it would sound like im wasting my money if i dont play the game. (first world problems of a gamer. DX) So yeah, u can say that i am current in a committed relationship with this game. DX
And speaking of spending money, I also bought myself another thing with my very own money. I bought myself a new phone and FINALLY, i got myself an Android phone. Friends have been buggin me to buy some so that my life would be beutiful. If you guys are interested in knowing, the phone i bought was called "Ninetology Black Pearl 2" and its a Malaysia brand phone. (google that for more information) The phone's price was RM599 originally but thanks to the government rebate and my brother's help I got the phone for just RM299. (sweet!)
So yeah, with that i've pretty much join the dark side where people will be spending half of their times with their smart phone and stuffs. And i cannot stress this enough im a gamer so of course my phone will be filled with games which again will occupy most of my free time again. XP
Besides that, the non-anti social and out going thing that I've done which is also the reason why I didnt blog is that I've been going around telling stories to people during the 2 months time. For some reason, people are very interested in the story the 'second'. Maybe cause the 'second' story happened pretty recently.. thats why people are dead curious about how things happened and all. But not just 'second' story is getting all the attention, the 'first' story is still pretty popular. I've been travelling to different places to share my stories to people who are interested in. The most epic one was probably the one I have to go all the way just to Sunway Pyramid to share a story to a friend of mine. But she was not alone, she was along with her friends and her juniors (total 5 of them) and I share the whole story to all of them.Yeah, im starting to think of making a career out of story telling. No kidding.
But really, i would like to thank everyone who are interested in my stories and also cared enough to comment and give feedbacks about it. It was a great pleasure to just share the little story of mine to you guys. I hope you guys have fun listening to it cause I really really have fun telling the story. X) And yes, for those of you who are still waiting for the part 2 of the 'second' story, I will TRY and find some time to work on it la. Dont worry, I've been telling the story so many time to the extend I think I will not miss any parts out anymore. XD So be patient and wait for it alright? XP
I guess that enough for one update eh? gotta start working on my assignments and also try and at least finish 2nd part of the 'second'. NEED MOTIVATION!! DX XD
CHEERS! XD
Friday, February 15, 2013
Happy Valentines Day 2013
Usually when its close to Valentines Day, I would be finding recipes for cookies and start to learn how to bake it before Valentines Day. Or I would be shopping alone in a shopping mall, entering shops that sells cute soft toys to find the perfect Valentines Day present for a certain particular 'someone special'. Basically, I would take action and at least do alittle something for 'someone special' just to make her feel special on Valentines Day.
This year's Valentines Day is alittle bit different.. I didnt really celebrate Valentines Day with anyone. Instead, I worked on Valentines Day.. To be honest, I didnt even know that i was working on Valentines Day until I noticed the shop was slightly more crowded than usual. Usually, it would be at tops 5 or 6 people in the shop but on Valentines Day it was like 7 or 8 people in the shop. And the surprising part is that the shop was crowded with females! Normally, you will rarely see beautiful girls walking into the game shop looking for games or console accessories Later on, I looked at the calender and realized that the day was Valentines Day.
Valentines Day at work started off pretty bad.. First, i didnt close my water bottle nicely and it spilled all over my pants.. Making me look like a dork who just pee-ed in his pants. (Luckily no one notice it, not even my manager. XP) Then, the internet was down for pretty much the whole day. According to my boss, there are some technical issues going on at the TM.net center that day. But my guess was TM.net probably was trying to cut off all the internet access so all the boys couldnt play their online games and would spend more time taking action on their someone special. XD
Now on normal days, when there are no customers I would turn on the PS3 to play 'Final Fantasy XIII-2' and my manager will be on the computer either playing RO2 or reading up game articles for the up coming games. Since that day the internet was down, there is pretty much NOTHING that my manager could do to burn time. She cleaned the shop, checked the stocks, double check the stocks again, arrange the games, reload the printer, basically she did everything that we dont have to really do in the shop. Her boyfriend was working that day so they couldnt really text each other or do anything special until afterwork.. So on Valentine's Day, my manager who is not single but currently in a relationship is bored. She was not sad or anything, just really really bored. She was so bored to the extend that when there are no customers earlier that day, i actually caught her staring at the cashier screen for like 3 minutes! (scary) D8
As a good part-timer, i feel very guilty being the only one who is having fun playing the PS3 and i feel pity for my manager who is just staring of into space and falling asleep. So, i decided to not play the game (even know im rushing to finish the game before i finish my work.) and accompany my manager to together together be bored or at least accompany her by talking to her. And so we talked, just like my first day working there, no gaming, just talking to each other. We shared little bit more about each other. After all, it is the last month im working there..
On Valentine's Day, my manager who I've been working for about one month plus now only realize that i am actually single. XD After all this time, she has always have the impression of me that im a guy who is in a relationship. I find it a very interesting topic, and so i asked her that all these time, what kind of girlfriendshe thinks im dating. She said that she always thought that I am in a relationship with a girl who is not a gamer, who is quiet, and understanding cause she doesnt text me during work. One of the reason that she thinks that I have a girlfriend was also because I have sooo many friends. Well, im actually very happy that she thinks that im the kind of guy who has a gf. I will take that kind of compliment anyday. XD
Okay, Valentine's Day in the shop was not that boring.. It was boring earlier that day.. After around 2pm, business has been more productive than usual. And like i mentioned before this, most of our customers today are girls & ladies who are looking for game stuffs for their Valentine's Day special someone. One of them came in to looking for two games. The game that she was looking for was called "Assassin Creed III" and "Hitman: Absolution" but she was having a hard time remembering the name of the games.. So she said she was looking for "Assassin Street" and also "Hitman: Resolution". I couldnt help it but giggled alittle and re-confirm the title of the game that she was looking for. She laughed and apologized. She told us that she has no idea about gaming stuffs. But the fact that she took the effort to remember the game names even know she knows nothing about games, its truly touching & admirable. X)
Then there was another lady customer who is looking for computer gaming accessory for someone special (she didnt say whether it was her bf , her relative or someone else. All she said was someone special) She was having a hard time selecting the perfect gaming computer mouse. So she asked me for advice and opinion like which is one better, why is this more expensive and all. I told her the goods and bads for each mouse and after that she found one that caught her eye. It was a Razer Mouse 'Mamba' which is sealed in a very beautiful container casing. The mouse was beautiful but so is the price of it. She asked me that if im the person whom she buying the present for, would I like it or not. I smiled and told her "To be honest, if there would a girl out there who is willing to buy anything for me on Valentine's Day, it doesnt matter what it would be or how expensive it would be, I will like it no matter what. Cause its the thought that counts. X)", she agreed with what i just said and bought that Razer Mamba. 8D I really hope that someone special of hers would felt touched after receiving the mouse. X)
The most interesting and the most entertaining story that clearly made my day was a customer who successfully bought the game "Ni no Kuni: Wrath of the White Witch". It all started while I was chatting with my manager, then the shop phone rang, I picked it up and it was a girl on the phone asking whether we have the game in stock or not.. Sadly, the game was extremely popular and it was a difficult game to find in any other game outlets. (if your interested, google that game title and you will understand why it is so famous. XD) And so, I told the girl that we are currently out of stock and couldnt on hold of the game anytime soon. The girl sounded extremely disappointted and then she asked whether are there any shopping outlets which have the game. I couldnt give her a proper answer but i did recommend some other game shops to help her out. I can tell that she sounded very desperate to look for the game. In the end, she thanked me and hang up the phone..
So, the shop couldnt get on hold on the game Ninokuni UNTIL Valentines Day. Boss dropped by our shop to restock a couple of games and lucky enough we manage to get 5 copies of Ninokuni. Sadly, there were 4 people on our waiting list who already pre-booked the game in advance which means there is only one extra copy of Ninokuni left in the shop. Coincidencely, the girl who I was speaking to one the phone a few moment ago was looking for the game. So, I called back the same number (using the technologies of search engines available of phones today) and told her that we have one Ninokuni left in our store. (Bear in mind that we usually dont do this kind of extra service but it was Valentines day.. so yeah) The girl was excited & overjoyed to hear the good news. She immediately called us to reserve the game and she will be there to claim the game on that day itself.
A few minutes later, the girl came into our shop along with her friends and asked for the game. The moment I hand out the game to her she was extremely excited. And the smile that was on her face was like she just found the best Valentine's Day present ever. I was being a busybody and asked "For your Valentine's Day present?" and obviously enough she said yes. Then she told me that her boyfriend has been looking for the game all over the place (her boyfriend was actually one of our shop customer) and couldnt find the game. She helped out her boyfriend to search for the game for weeks but still couldnt find the game due to how famous the game is. Thankfully on Valentines Day she manage to get the game from us and it would probably make the BEST Valentine's Day present that she can give to her boyfriend. She thanked me about a million times for helping her to get on hold of the game. After that, before she left the shop, she wished me a Happy Valentines Day.
After the girl left and after hearing all sort of stories from the girl customers, Im amazed and touched by how far can girl go to get their boyfriend a Valentines Day present. Whoever their boyfriend are, they should be happy that they have such a considerate and loving girlfriend. And I glad that I can make their Valentine's Day little more special. X)
I had fun working in the shop during Valentines Day. I guess it was probably a good idea to work on Valentines Day. Was a great day to keep my mind of things and also help other people to make their Valentines Day special. Not to mention me and my manager received some ang paus from our boss and some from our regular customers. (I dont even know some of them. XD)
This year's Valentine's Day may be different.. but it sure was different in a good way. X)
So tell me guys, how did your Valentines day went? XP
CHEERS!
This year's Valentines Day is alittle bit different.. I didnt really celebrate Valentines Day with anyone. Instead, I worked on Valentines Day.. To be honest, I didnt even know that i was working on Valentines Day until I noticed the shop was slightly more crowded than usual. Usually, it would be at tops 5 or 6 people in the shop but on Valentines Day it was like 7 or 8 people in the shop. And the surprising part is that the shop was crowded with females! Normally, you will rarely see beautiful girls walking into the game shop looking for games or console accessories Later on, I looked at the calender and realized that the day was Valentines Day.
Valentines Day at work started off pretty bad.. First, i didnt close my water bottle nicely and it spilled all over my pants.. Making me look like a dork who just pee-ed in his pants. (Luckily no one notice it, not even my manager. XP) Then, the internet was down for pretty much the whole day. According to my boss, there are some technical issues going on at the TM.net center that day. But my guess was TM.net probably was trying to cut off all the internet access so all the boys couldnt play their online games and would spend more time taking action on their someone special. XD
Now on normal days, when there are no customers I would turn on the PS3 to play 'Final Fantasy XIII-2' and my manager will be on the computer either playing RO2 or reading up game articles for the up coming games. Since that day the internet was down, there is pretty much NOTHING that my manager could do to burn time. She cleaned the shop, checked the stocks, double check the stocks again, arrange the games, reload the printer, basically she did everything that we dont have to really do in the shop. Her boyfriend was working that day so they couldnt really text each other or do anything special until afterwork.. So on Valentine's Day, my manager who is not single but currently in a relationship is bored. She was not sad or anything, just really really bored. She was so bored to the extend that when there are no customers earlier that day, i actually caught her staring at the cashier screen for like 3 minutes! (scary) D8
As a good part-timer, i feel very guilty being the only one who is having fun playing the PS3 and i feel pity for my manager who is just staring of into space and falling asleep. So, i decided to not play the game (even know im rushing to finish the game before i finish my work.) and accompany my manager to together together be bored or at least accompany her by talking to her. And so we talked, just like my first day working there, no gaming, just talking to each other. We shared little bit more about each other. After all, it is the last month im working there..
On Valentine's Day, my manager who I've been working for about one month plus now only realize that i am actually single. XD After all this time, she has always have the impression of me that im a guy who is in a relationship. I find it a very interesting topic, and so i asked her that all these time, what kind of girlfriendshe thinks im dating. She said that she always thought that I am in a relationship with a girl who is not a gamer, who is quiet, and understanding cause she doesnt text me during work. One of the reason that she thinks that I have a girlfriend was also because I have sooo many friends. Well, im actually very happy that she thinks that im the kind of guy who has a gf. I will take that kind of compliment anyday. XD
Okay, Valentine's Day in the shop was not that boring.. It was boring earlier that day.. After around 2pm, business has been more productive than usual. And like i mentioned before this, most of our customers today are girls & ladies who are looking for game stuffs for their Valentine's Day special someone. One of them came in to looking for two games. The game that she was looking for was called "Assassin Creed III" and "Hitman: Absolution" but she was having a hard time remembering the name of the games.. So she said she was looking for "Assassin Street" and also "Hitman: Resolution". I couldnt help it but giggled alittle and re-confirm the title of the game that she was looking for. She laughed and apologized. She told us that she has no idea about gaming stuffs. But the fact that she took the effort to remember the game names even know she knows nothing about games, its truly touching & admirable. X)
Then there was another lady customer who is looking for computer gaming accessory for someone special (she didnt say whether it was her bf , her relative or someone else. All she said was someone special) She was having a hard time selecting the perfect gaming computer mouse. So she asked me for advice and opinion like which is one better, why is this more expensive and all. I told her the goods and bads for each mouse and after that she found one that caught her eye. It was a Razer Mouse 'Mamba' which is sealed in a very beautiful container casing. The mouse was beautiful but so is the price of it. She asked me that if im the person whom she buying the present for, would I like it or not. I smiled and told her "To be honest, if there would a girl out there who is willing to buy anything for me on Valentine's Day, it doesnt matter what it would be or how expensive it would be, I will like it no matter what. Cause its the thought that counts. X)", she agreed with what i just said and bought that Razer Mamba. 8D I really hope that someone special of hers would felt touched after receiving the mouse. X)
The most interesting and the most entertaining story that clearly made my day was a customer who successfully bought the game "Ni no Kuni: Wrath of the White Witch". It all started while I was chatting with my manager, then the shop phone rang, I picked it up and it was a girl on the phone asking whether we have the game in stock or not.. Sadly, the game was extremely popular and it was a difficult game to find in any other game outlets. (if your interested, google that game title and you will understand why it is so famous. XD) And so, I told the girl that we are currently out of stock and couldnt on hold of the game anytime soon. The girl sounded extremely disappointted and then she asked whether are there any shopping outlets which have the game. I couldnt give her a proper answer but i did recommend some other game shops to help her out. I can tell that she sounded very desperate to look for the game. In the end, she thanked me and hang up the phone..
So, the shop couldnt get on hold on the game Ninokuni UNTIL Valentines Day. Boss dropped by our shop to restock a couple of games and lucky enough we manage to get 5 copies of Ninokuni. Sadly, there were 4 people on our waiting list who already pre-booked the game in advance which means there is only one extra copy of Ninokuni left in the shop. Coincidencely, the girl who I was speaking to one the phone a few moment ago was looking for the game. So, I called back the same number (using the technologies of search engines available of phones today) and told her that we have one Ninokuni left in our store. (Bear in mind that we usually dont do this kind of extra service but it was Valentines day.. so yeah) The girl was excited & overjoyed to hear the good news. She immediately called us to reserve the game and she will be there to claim the game on that day itself.
A few minutes later, the girl came into our shop along with her friends and asked for the game. The moment I hand out the game to her she was extremely excited. And the smile that was on her face was like she just found the best Valentine's Day present ever. I was being a busybody and asked "For your Valentine's Day present?" and obviously enough she said yes. Then she told me that her boyfriend has been looking for the game all over the place (her boyfriend was actually one of our shop customer) and couldnt find the game. She helped out her boyfriend to search for the game for weeks but still couldnt find the game due to how famous the game is. Thankfully on Valentines Day she manage to get the game from us and it would probably make the BEST Valentine's Day present that she can give to her boyfriend. She thanked me about a million times for helping her to get on hold of the game. After that, before she left the shop, she wished me a Happy Valentines Day.
After the girl left and after hearing all sort of stories from the girl customers, Im amazed and touched by how far can girl go to get their boyfriend a Valentines Day present. Whoever their boyfriend are, they should be happy that they have such a considerate and loving girlfriend. And I glad that I can make their Valentine's Day little more special. X)
I had fun working in the shop during Valentines Day. I guess it was probably a good idea to work on Valentines Day. Was a great day to keep my mind of things and also help other people to make their Valentines Day special. Not to mention me and my manager received some ang paus from our boss and some from our regular customers. (I dont even know some of them. XD)
This year's Valentine's Day may be different.. but it sure was different in a good way. X)
So tell me guys, how did your Valentines day went? XP
CHEERS!
Thursday, February 14, 2013
The Second (Part 1): The Meeting & Knowing
For this blogpost, i will not mentioning names.. I shall be describing the girl of my first confession as 'first' and then second one (who is the main character of this story) as 'second'. I like to keep things alittle private and mysterious. XP Oh and pre-warned that this is going to be one hell of a long post.. Therefore the entire story will be split into multiple parts (roughly around 5 parts or lesser, depending on my mood)
If you are interested in knowing 'The First Confession' story.. Here is the link for you to start reading from part one. Fear not, the story of the first doesnt have much relation to the second one.. So, not reading the first one is fine. (but of course, it would be better and nicer of you if you were to read it! XD)
The Story of The First:
http://memoriezbeyond.blogspot.com/2012/07/my-first-part-1.html
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I have received tremendous amount of good comments & feedbacks about my first confession story. I must say, im very thankful and greatful to all of you that put the effort to give me feedbacks and actually spend the time to read such a long story with bad grammers in it. XD Some of you guys are wanting to hear the second story of my second confession to this second special girl who is very dear to me. Probably because some of you guys already know who is she and you guys just really want to know what has been going on between both of us so far. But I remember to tell you guys to wait until the right time and lucky for u guys, the right time happened and so, I decided to write share this story of my second confession. Brace yourself cause this is going to be another long long long story. XD
Its funny that just last year i shared the story about my very first confession to you guys.. And now, couple of months later here I am again sharing with you guys another story. You guys probably think that Im like a playboy or love-boy-jumper or something like that now. XD Before you guys start judging me as an easy-heart change-desperate-lover-boy-jumper (i dont even know what im talking about here.) Read this ENTIRE story first. After the story, then you are granted the permission to judge me. XP
So how did I know 'second'? Well, first to make the story much more longer, we shall talk about how we both knew the existance of each other. XD Through both of our discussions, and according to her, its more like she knew my existence first before I knew hers. From her side of her story, how she knew my existance was from the time when i was still into 'first'. Back when I was in high school form 2, i will sometimes sneak out from class during breaks and visit 'first' in her classroom just to spend more time with her. 'Second' was in the exact same class as the 'first' that time and thats how she knew my existence. And that how she knew my existence but thats just her side of the story.. To be honest, neither of us know whether that story is true or not BUT it is true that 'second' was in the same class as 'first' back then. (double checked it using school book. XD)
Now, my side of the story on how I know her existence is alittle bit different.. To be exact, someone kinda-indirectly-introduced me to her. It wasnt like any kind of introduce like "Hi YuMing, meet (fill in the name here)". Oh no no no.. Its was more like a threatening kind of introduce. Just like 'first', 'second' was a pretty popular girl as well in high school (I didnt know anything about it until I came to have feelings for her. XP) One very normal day in high school years, a guy came up to me and had a talk to me. That guy was in my primary school and I never really liked him due to his pathetic attitude. Anyways, he told me to stay away from 'second' and ask me to leave her alone. (To be honest, i am not very sure about this part.. it was long time ago so my memory about it is kinda fuzzy.. XP) He probably had a misunderstanding about me and 'second'. I didnt even know who is 'second' or how she look like until I asked my friend about it. Again, I was into 'first' so i didnt bother paying much attention to 'second' that time. XP
I may not clearly remember the day that I know the existence of 'second' but im pretty sure how we sort of, officially became friends. How we became friends happen after 'first' rejected me.. It was roughly around form 3 (one year after the rejection). The move on period.. the period where Im trying to find myself again.. The time when I was trying adept into a single life and start another new search for another someone to be interested again. Back then, I made a friends with a couple of librarians and sometimes after school when i dont feel like walking home or just dont feel like going home, I will stay back and accompany my librarian friends during their library duties. Yeap, u guessed it, 'second' was a librarian.. and coincidencely, her librarian duties are the same day as my friends.
Now my first impression of her was, she is a hardworking girl that will spend half of her time studying.. That is because most of the time during the library duties, she will be either doing her homework or studying or reading something. So sometimes, when my friends are not around.. I will try and initiate a conversation with her just to distract her from her studies. Which leads to my second first impression of her, quiet. She was probably one of the very few girls which I have a tough time having a continuous conversation with. Continuous conversation as in a back and forth conversation that you will ask me something, I answer, we talk about the question, bring up a topic to talk related to it, then a new topic will rise conversation will continue. When that conversation is over I will ask you something, you answer and the recycle repeats. The first few time talking to her was kinda tough, cause when I ask a question, she will answer and the conversation will just end after she answers. And I will keep on asking her questions or start up new topics until there is an awkward silent between both of us. Basically, she just doesnt know or probably dont want to start a topic/conversation with me. I guess it was probably hard for her to open up all in a sudden to a strange, weird, annoying guy who likes disturb her during her study time. XD
Despite how difficult it is to talk to her, i somehow find this girl interesting and fun to talk to. Making her talk and share alittle bit more about herself was like an achievement to me like "YES, finally getting this girl out from her comfort zone!" XD After awhile, I found out that she walks home too as she lives pretty close to the school. And coincidencely, she walks the same way as I am when im walking home. Which gives us both alittle more time to talk each other and more importantly, more time for me to know her. XP
I remember one of the interesting topics and also one of the first few topics that we talk about was her name. Back then, I find her name was kinda hard to pronounce, and so whenever there was an awkward silent between us, I will start learning how to pronounce her name infront of her and at the same time crack a joke about her name as well. (Now that i think of it, its a pretty stupid move to make fun of a friend's name whom u just get to know) Her name was not really that hard to pronounce, it was just me who had a bad ability to remember and pronounce other people's name. Sometimes, I even asked my other librarian friends on how to pronounce her name again, so that the next time we talk I wont start off pronouncing her name wrongly. XD
Like i said before this, that time was the time when im trying to look for someone else to be interested in. And I was pretty bad at those kind of things (even until today) cause all my life I was only interested in 'first' and no one else. Therefore, I have no experience or no idea how to get to like another person again. And I was weak back then (even until today. XD) little little things also will get me emo. So sometimes, I get heart broken by some of the girls who i tried to go for (funny thing is that i never confessed to them nor did they even rejected me and i will get emo over it) And when Im emo, I will always find a place where I can be comfortable and alone which is the library. So one very normal day, like any other day, I was alone being emo in the library after school and then she came up to me and talked to me. That is probably one of the first few times that she actually initiate a conversation with me. Later i found out that this girl maybe quiet and all, but she is a very caring friend. Talking to her about my problems made me feel alittle bit better every time. Instead of trying to make her open up herself to me, she made me open up myself to her which brings both of alittle more closer to one another. After that day, I know that she is a caring friend who I can express and share some of my problems with. X)
Another one of the first few impression of her was she is a fragile girl. In other words, a very innocent girl or in more not-so-nice term, weak. I was afraid if i explode infront of this girl she will get scared and run away. Or if i poke her too hard she will break like a piece of glass. (I really dont know how to explain here. DX) So, whenever im around her, I will be alittle bit more mindful and careful with the words im saying. I was afraid that if i swear, say something vulgar or rude, she will freak out and leave me alone. (seriously) Later i found out that she only have sisters and no brother. I never had a younger brother nor a sister before (cause im the youngest in the family) So, since we are pretty close to each other and I had the impression that she is an innocent fragile girl, I start treating her more like little sister than a normal friend.(Which starts up the bad habit of me patting other people's head. XD)
As days, months and a year went by (which brings us to the year when i was form 4) Both of us became alot closer to each other. Talking to her was much more easier compared to the first time but still one thing will never change is that there are still awkward silent/pause moments between both of us. (this thing will still happen even until today. XD) Sometimes when i have the time to skip classes during break time, i would visit my friends from other classes. And I would sometimes, take a U-turn to her class, sneak in if there are no teacher in the class and disturb her from her study moments again. XD After knowing her for a year, I found out that this girl can be playful and funny at times. And she is very mentally strong and independent girl cause she is a very religious christian. Probably a much more mentally stronger person and a more independent person compared to me. XP
So how did I fell for her? Well, to be honest, a friend of mine, Nat is the one who somehow made me realize that I have feelings for her. Funny story.. There was once that she was going to USA to visit her sister. And for some reason, I made a pretty big deal about it. Big deal NOT in a bad way not like "Owh, i forbid you to go.." something like that, no no no.. it was more like an OVERLY caring way. She was going to USA for just a couple of days or weeks (i forgotten) but I treated it like it was a big deal and all. I treated it such a big deal to the extend that I wrote a blog about it. Yeah, that crazy. Nat reads my blog and one day he came to me and said that its very strange and crazy of me to blog about someone due to something THIS small. (me and Nat have been friends since primary, so he knows me pretty well.) And that blog post was not like easy going, cincai writting kind of blog post, its like i've putted in alot of effort and feelings writing that blog post. (which is true after reading it again) He said that he thinks I probably have feelings for her.
At first, I said to myself that it couldnt be feelings.. could it? Cause from what I know, 'second' was kinda different compared to 'first' but okay, lets not go to the extend and compare both of them. The main point is that, 'second''s personality was very different from mine. (that is according to my friend's feedback and according to my own understanding) But after doing some thinking and did some asking to my heart instead of my head, I realize that the way that im treating 'second' is the same as the way as I was treating 'first' when I had feelings for her. And the comfortable feeling when Im with her and the thought of wanting to spend more time with her was definitely not only-friend kind of thing. With that, my heart gave me an answer, yes.. I have developed feelings for her.
TO BE CONTINUE.
Read Part 2
If you are interested in knowing 'The First Confession' story.. Here is the link for you to start reading from part one. Fear not, the story of the first doesnt have much relation to the second one.. So, not reading the first one is fine. (but of course, it would be better and nicer of you if you were to read it! XD)
The Story of The First:
http://memoriezbeyond.blogspot.com/2012/07/my-first-part-1.html
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I have received tremendous amount of good comments & feedbacks about my first confession story. I must say, im very thankful and greatful to all of you that put the effort to give me feedbacks and actually spend the time to read such a long story with bad grammers in it. XD Some of you guys are wanting to hear the second story of my second confession to this second special girl who is very dear to me. Probably because some of you guys already know who is she and you guys just really want to know what has been going on between both of us so far. But I remember to tell you guys to wait until the right time and lucky for u guys, the right time happened and so, I decided to write share this story of my second confession. Brace yourself cause this is going to be another long long long story. XD
Its funny that just last year i shared the story about my very first confession to you guys.. And now, couple of months later here I am again sharing with you guys another story. You guys probably think that Im like a playboy or love-boy-jumper or something like that now. XD Before you guys start judging me as an easy-heart change-desperate-lover-boy-jumper (i dont even know what im talking about here.) Read this ENTIRE story first. After the story, then you are granted the permission to judge me. XP
So how did I know 'second'? Well, first to make the story much more longer, we shall talk about how we both knew the existance of each other. XD Through both of our discussions, and according to her, its more like she knew my existence first before I knew hers. From her side of her story, how she knew my existance was from the time when i was still into 'first'. Back when I was in high school form 2, i will sometimes sneak out from class during breaks and visit 'first' in her classroom just to spend more time with her. 'Second' was in the exact same class as the 'first' that time and thats how she knew my existence. And that how she knew my existence but thats just her side of the story.. To be honest, neither of us know whether that story is true or not BUT it is true that 'second' was in the same class as 'first' back then. (double checked it using school book. XD)
Now, my side of the story on how I know her existence is alittle bit different.. To be exact, someone kinda-indirectly-introduced me to her. It wasnt like any kind of introduce like "Hi YuMing, meet (fill in the name here)". Oh no no no.. Its was more like a threatening kind of introduce. Just like 'first', 'second' was a pretty popular girl as well in high school (I didnt know anything about it until I came to have feelings for her. XP) One very normal day in high school years, a guy came up to me and had a talk to me. That guy was in my primary school and I never really liked him due to his pathetic attitude. Anyways, he told me to stay away from 'second' and ask me to leave her alone. (To be honest, i am not very sure about this part.. it was long time ago so my memory about it is kinda fuzzy.. XP) He probably had a misunderstanding about me and 'second'. I didnt even know who is 'second' or how she look like until I asked my friend about it. Again, I was into 'first' so i didnt bother paying much attention to 'second' that time. XP
I may not clearly remember the day that I know the existence of 'second' but im pretty sure how we sort of, officially became friends. How we became friends happen after 'first' rejected me.. It was roughly around form 3 (one year after the rejection). The move on period.. the period where Im trying to find myself again.. The time when I was trying adept into a single life and start another new search for another someone to be interested again. Back then, I made a friends with a couple of librarians and sometimes after school when i dont feel like walking home or just dont feel like going home, I will stay back and accompany my librarian friends during their library duties. Yeap, u guessed it, 'second' was a librarian.. and coincidencely, her librarian duties are the same day as my friends.
Now my first impression of her was, she is a hardworking girl that will spend half of her time studying.. That is because most of the time during the library duties, she will be either doing her homework or studying or reading something. So sometimes, when my friends are not around.. I will try and initiate a conversation with her just to distract her from her studies. Which leads to my second first impression of her, quiet. She was probably one of the very few girls which I have a tough time having a continuous conversation with. Continuous conversation as in a back and forth conversation that you will ask me something, I answer, we talk about the question, bring up a topic to talk related to it, then a new topic will rise conversation will continue. When that conversation is over I will ask you something, you answer and the recycle repeats. The first few time talking to her was kinda tough, cause when I ask a question, she will answer and the conversation will just end after she answers. And I will keep on asking her questions or start up new topics until there is an awkward silent between both of us. Basically, she just doesnt know or probably dont want to start a topic/conversation with me. I guess it was probably hard for her to open up all in a sudden to a strange, weird, annoying guy who likes disturb her during her study time. XD
Despite how difficult it is to talk to her, i somehow find this girl interesting and fun to talk to. Making her talk and share alittle bit more about herself was like an achievement to me like "YES, finally getting this girl out from her comfort zone!" XD After awhile, I found out that she walks home too as she lives pretty close to the school. And coincidencely, she walks the same way as I am when im walking home. Which gives us both alittle more time to talk each other and more importantly, more time for me to know her. XP
I remember one of the interesting topics and also one of the first few topics that we talk about was her name. Back then, I find her name was kinda hard to pronounce, and so whenever there was an awkward silent between us, I will start learning how to pronounce her name infront of her and at the same time crack a joke about her name as well. (Now that i think of it, its a pretty stupid move to make fun of a friend's name whom u just get to know) Her name was not really that hard to pronounce, it was just me who had a bad ability to remember and pronounce other people's name. Sometimes, I even asked my other librarian friends on how to pronounce her name again, so that the next time we talk I wont start off pronouncing her name wrongly. XD
Like i said before this, that time was the time when im trying to look for someone else to be interested in. And I was pretty bad at those kind of things (even until today) cause all my life I was only interested in 'first' and no one else. Therefore, I have no experience or no idea how to get to like another person again. And I was weak back then (even until today. XD) little little things also will get me emo. So sometimes, I get heart broken by some of the girls who i tried to go for (funny thing is that i never confessed to them nor did they even rejected me and i will get emo over it) And when Im emo, I will always find a place where I can be comfortable and alone which is the library. So one very normal day, like any other day, I was alone being emo in the library after school and then she came up to me and talked to me. That is probably one of the first few times that she actually initiate a conversation with me. Later i found out that this girl maybe quiet and all, but she is a very caring friend. Talking to her about my problems made me feel alittle bit better every time. Instead of trying to make her open up herself to me, she made me open up myself to her which brings both of alittle more closer to one another. After that day, I know that she is a caring friend who I can express and share some of my problems with. X)
Another one of the first few impression of her was she is a fragile girl. In other words, a very innocent girl or in more not-so-nice term, weak. I was afraid if i explode infront of this girl she will get scared and run away. Or if i poke her too hard she will break like a piece of glass. (I really dont know how to explain here. DX) So, whenever im around her, I will be alittle bit more mindful and careful with the words im saying. I was afraid that if i swear, say something vulgar or rude, she will freak out and leave me alone. (seriously) Later i found out that she only have sisters and no brother. I never had a younger brother nor a sister before (cause im the youngest in the family) So, since we are pretty close to each other and I had the impression that she is an innocent fragile girl, I start treating her more like little sister than a normal friend.(Which starts up the bad habit of me patting other people's head. XD)
As days, months and a year went by (which brings us to the year when i was form 4) Both of us became alot closer to each other. Talking to her was much more easier compared to the first time but still one thing will never change is that there are still awkward silent/pause moments between both of us. (this thing will still happen even until today. XD) Sometimes when i have the time to skip classes during break time, i would visit my friends from other classes. And I would sometimes, take a U-turn to her class, sneak in if there are no teacher in the class and disturb her from her study moments again. XD After knowing her for a year, I found out that this girl can be playful and funny at times. And she is very mentally strong and independent girl cause she is a very religious christian. Probably a much more mentally stronger person and a more independent person compared to me. XP
So how did I fell for her? Well, to be honest, a friend of mine, Nat is the one who somehow made me realize that I have feelings for her. Funny story.. There was once that she was going to USA to visit her sister. And for some reason, I made a pretty big deal about it. Big deal NOT in a bad way not like "Owh, i forbid you to go.." something like that, no no no.. it was more like an OVERLY caring way. She was going to USA for just a couple of days or weeks (i forgotten) but I treated it like it was a big deal and all. I treated it such a big deal to the extend that I wrote a blog about it. Yeah, that crazy. Nat reads my blog and one day he came to me and said that its very strange and crazy of me to blog about someone due to something THIS small. (me and Nat have been friends since primary, so he knows me pretty well.) And that blog post was not like easy going, cincai writting kind of blog post, its like i've putted in alot of effort and feelings writing that blog post. (which is true after reading it again) He said that he thinks I probably have feelings for her.
At first, I said to myself that it couldnt be feelings.. could it? Cause from what I know, 'second' was kinda different compared to 'first' but okay, lets not go to the extend and compare both of them. The main point is that, 'second''s personality was very different from mine. (that is according to my friend's feedback and according to my own understanding) But after doing some thinking and did some asking to my heart instead of my head, I realize that the way that im treating 'second' is the same as the way as I was treating 'first' when I had feelings for her. And the comfortable feeling when Im with her and the thought of wanting to spend more time with her was definitely not only-friend kind of thing. With that, my heart gave me an answer, yes.. I have developed feelings for her.
TO BE CONTINUE.
Read Part 2
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Working Now~
Alright for those of you who dont know me, dont have my facebook, dont have my twitter, or dont read my facebook status or tweets, here is a BIG updates for you guys. I got a job and current working right now. Im working at a place called "Gamer's Hideout" which is at Tropicana City Mall, 2nd floor, in between and technology stall and a clothing stall. Its the game shop with a TV outside display all sort of game trailers. XP
Now, I did not just get magically employed by just going thru that one interview from Gamer's Hideout, the story is not that simple.. in fact, its actually a pretty long story.. It all begins around the early January.. Approximately one or two days before the new year, my mom has been complaining that I've been sitting infront of the computer playing video games alittle bit too long now.
Usually, the stubborn kid inside of me will ignore whatever she says.. But this time, i agree with what she said. Im starting to get alittle bit bored with my games.. Yes, i actually said that im BORED with games. I was so bored to the extend that i actually fell asleep when im in the middle of playing the game. Maybe because I was tired or the game is really really boring but MY MAIN POINT IS, i need to get out there and do something.. DX
So the next day, i head out to tropicana city mall which is the closest shopping outlet (actually ss2 mall is but that place is pretty dead..) there a couple of places that i am initially interested in already.. Like Toy'R us, Ice-Cream shop, GSC, and any basically game shop that are available there. So i head out to all those shop, asking if they are looking for any part timers and took all of their interviews. That day, i went about 4 to 5 interviews and all of them said that they will call me back.. (one of them was Gamer's Hideout.. This is important for later on in the story. XP) EXCEPT GSC, GSC was the only one that i dont have to have formal interview for anything. All i did was write down all my information, share a thing or two about myself and after the fella said that "Okay, so from now on you are one of us already la.". In other words, i was hired.. (so i thought..)
Now they didnt really give much information.. no schedule, no working time, not even the pay of the job! All that guy told me was he will ask his manager to call me back tomorrow or latest and i quote latest is the day after tomorrow (after new years) And like an idiot, i believe whatever the person said.. So i waited for the phone call.. 3 days later im starting to get alittle worried and when day 5 hits, i had it. The funny and annoying thing about this is that i went for 4 to 5 interviews and NON of them called me back or so. I was actually hoping that Toy'R us would call cause the person interviewing me said that the really need the people. Well, guess thats another false hope..
I told my friends about this and they asked me to go back to GSC and sort that things out if i really wanted the job. So i decided to head back to TCMall not just to ask GSC about my job but to head on to other job interviews if they didnt want me for the all in the sudden. A friend of mine, Huiee is also interested in looking for jobs and so she followed me to TCMall the next day to look for jobs.
First things first, we head to GSC and FIRE out my complains! (i didnt really do that..) I WANTED to went straight to them and tell them something like "HEY YOU! HIRE ME CAUSE YOU NEED ME!!" (that was initially the plan..) I went and ask whether did they have any interest in hiring me and all.. The part timers there didnt know anything about it and they asked me to fill in another information piece of paper. (meaning they have lost the previous one i gave them) and after that, I have my official interview.. The interview was not like any other walk in interview.. Hell, i was sent to the meeting table along with 2 other GSC managers interviewing me. In the end, I sorta turn down the job due to their irresponsibility and the pay is TOO low.. So i went on to other shops with Huiee for other job interviews.
Me and Huiee walked into about 3 to 5 shops that day for job interview. (FYI, Huiee did more job interviews than me.) The one that we both are really looking forward to is a game shop called "Brother Gamers". How cool issit for BOTH of us to work in a game shop? Knowing from my brother (whose first ever job is in a game shop) working in a game shop is LOTS of fun. So both of us are hoping that they REALLY call us back in for a second interview which the fella said it would be around tomorrow's time..
Lucky for me, Brothers gamers really did called me up again but they did an "on the phone" kind of interview with me. The boss only ask me a few question and after that he said "Alright we will call back later for further notice." Now, for those of you who havent done any job interviews or job seeking kind of thing before, here is a little knowledge for you guys. My brother who claims himself the master of the "art of job interviewing" taught me this little knowledge AND from the countless numbers of job interview experienced by me & Huiee, it is proven that when an employer says that "we will call you back.." Chances for you to get a call back is SLIM.. Look at me & huiee, we both when for more than 9 job interviews and NONE of them called me back. (so we thought..) It was worst for Huiee cause Brother Gamers didnt even took the effort to call her.. Poor Huiee. DX
A few days later, after I last received a call from brother gamers, there was good news for Huiee. One of the jobs that she interview in TCMall called her and she is offically hired for the job. She was kind enough to call me not only just to tell me but to also invite me for the job that she was hired. The job she got was more like teaching young little kids, play with them and taking care of them. (btw, the place that she is working in is called "Gymboree") I was starting to have a little bit of dilemma.. The pay for the job is very good and I have experience in taking care of kids through Children Fellowship camps. But I have a feeling that I will lost interest in this job after awhile.. So i told her to give me one day to decide..
Just as soon as I was are the verge or agreeing to work at Gymboree with Huiee, my cell phone rang. Remember the first time I went for TCMall looking for jobs and I told u guys to remember that one of the job interviews i went for was Gamer's Hideout? Well yes, Gamer's Hideout call me back! 8D The person on the phone (who is currently my working manger) called me and told me that their boss is ineterested in hiring me. So, they called me in for a second interview. I was excited and immediately told them i'll be there right away (in 20 minutes) and i freaking ran all the way to TCMall.
The second interview was by the same person who interviewed me the first time (aka my manager) she asked me a couple of question and after moment.. she hired me! Offically.. This time i was very sure i was hired (unlike what happen with GSC) this time i got a clarification for my schedule, pay, what am i going to do.. basically i got all the informations about my job.
So yeah, thats the story how i got hired at Gamer's Hideout. Been working for about two weeks now and I LOVING the job. Not only because the job is fun, my manager is a pretty fun person to hang out, the assignments given by my bosses are quite challenging and entertaining, and more importantly the people i meet working there (customers to be exact) are quiet entertaining. Not to mention, its a game shop, so we are allowed to play games. XD
Im glad that i got this job so that I get to burn my time talking and meeting different kind of gamers and customers and I wanna thank Gamer's Hideout for hiring me. Hope I didnt do any mistake while working there so that they wouldnt feel regret for hiring me. DX
Hope everyone who is having long semester break like me is having a great time as well. X)
CHEERS!! XD
Now, I did not just get magically employed by just going thru that one interview from Gamer's Hideout, the story is not that simple.. in fact, its actually a pretty long story.. It all begins around the early January.. Approximately one or two days before the new year, my mom has been complaining that I've been sitting infront of the computer playing video games alittle bit too long now.
Usually, the stubborn kid inside of me will ignore whatever she says.. But this time, i agree with what she said. Im starting to get alittle bit bored with my games.. Yes, i actually said that im BORED with games. I was so bored to the extend that i actually fell asleep when im in the middle of playing the game. Maybe because I was tired or the game is really really boring but MY MAIN POINT IS, i need to get out there and do something.. DX
So the next day, i head out to tropicana city mall which is the closest shopping outlet (actually ss2 mall is but that place is pretty dead..) there a couple of places that i am initially interested in already.. Like Toy'R us, Ice-Cream shop, GSC, and any basically game shop that are available there. So i head out to all those shop, asking if they are looking for any part timers and took all of their interviews. That day, i went about 4 to 5 interviews and all of them said that they will call me back.. (one of them was Gamer's Hideout.. This is important for later on in the story. XP) EXCEPT GSC, GSC was the only one that i dont have to have formal interview for anything. All i did was write down all my information, share a thing or two about myself and after the fella said that "Okay, so from now on you are one of us already la.". In other words, i was hired.. (so i thought..)
Now they didnt really give much information.. no schedule, no working time, not even the pay of the job! All that guy told me was he will ask his manager to call me back tomorrow or latest and i quote latest is the day after tomorrow (after new years) And like an idiot, i believe whatever the person said.. So i waited for the phone call.. 3 days later im starting to get alittle worried and when day 5 hits, i had it. The funny and annoying thing about this is that i went for 4 to 5 interviews and NON of them called me back or so. I was actually hoping that Toy'R us would call cause the person interviewing me said that the really need the people. Well, guess thats another false hope..
I told my friends about this and they asked me to go back to GSC and sort that things out if i really wanted the job. So i decided to head back to TCMall not just to ask GSC about my job but to head on to other job interviews if they didnt want me for the all in the sudden. A friend of mine, Huiee is also interested in looking for jobs and so she followed me to TCMall the next day to look for jobs.
First things first, we head to GSC and FIRE out my complains! (i didnt really do that..) I WANTED to went straight to them and tell them something like "HEY YOU! HIRE ME CAUSE YOU NEED ME!!" (that was initially the plan..) I went and ask whether did they have any interest in hiring me and all.. The part timers there didnt know anything about it and they asked me to fill in another information piece of paper. (meaning they have lost the previous one i gave them) and after that, I have my official interview.. The interview was not like any other walk in interview.. Hell, i was sent to the meeting table along with 2 other GSC managers interviewing me. In the end, I sorta turn down the job due to their irresponsibility and the pay is TOO low.. So i went on to other shops with Huiee for other job interviews.
Me and Huiee walked into about 3 to 5 shops that day for job interview. (FYI, Huiee did more job interviews than me.) The one that we both are really looking forward to is a game shop called "Brother Gamers". How cool issit for BOTH of us to work in a game shop? Knowing from my brother (whose first ever job is in a game shop) working in a game shop is LOTS of fun. So both of us are hoping that they REALLY call us back in for a second interview which the fella said it would be around tomorrow's time..
Lucky for me, Brothers gamers really did called me up again but they did an "on the phone" kind of interview with me. The boss only ask me a few question and after that he said "Alright we will call back later for further notice." Now, for those of you who havent done any job interviews or job seeking kind of thing before, here is a little knowledge for you guys. My brother who claims himself the master of the "art of job interviewing" taught me this little knowledge AND from the countless numbers of job interview experienced by me & Huiee, it is proven that when an employer says that "we will call you back.." Chances for you to get a call back is SLIM.. Look at me & huiee, we both when for more than 9 job interviews and NONE of them called me back. (so we thought..) It was worst for Huiee cause Brother Gamers didnt even took the effort to call her.. Poor Huiee. DX
A few days later, after I last received a call from brother gamers, there was good news for Huiee. One of the jobs that she interview in TCMall called her and she is offically hired for the job. She was kind enough to call me not only just to tell me but to also invite me for the job that she was hired. The job she got was more like teaching young little kids, play with them and taking care of them. (btw, the place that she is working in is called "Gymboree") I was starting to have a little bit of dilemma.. The pay for the job is very good and I have experience in taking care of kids through Children Fellowship camps. But I have a feeling that I will lost interest in this job after awhile.. So i told her to give me one day to decide..
Just as soon as I was are the verge or agreeing to work at Gymboree with Huiee, my cell phone rang. Remember the first time I went for TCMall looking for jobs and I told u guys to remember that one of the job interviews i went for was Gamer's Hideout? Well yes, Gamer's Hideout call me back! 8D The person on the phone (who is currently my working manger) called me and told me that their boss is ineterested in hiring me. So, they called me in for a second interview. I was excited and immediately told them i'll be there right away (in 20 minutes) and i freaking ran all the way to TCMall.
The second interview was by the same person who interviewed me the first time (aka my manager) she asked me a couple of question and after moment.. she hired me! Offically.. This time i was very sure i was hired (unlike what happen with GSC) this time i got a clarification for my schedule, pay, what am i going to do.. basically i got all the informations about my job.
So yeah, thats the story how i got hired at Gamer's Hideout. Been working for about two weeks now and I LOVING the job. Not only because the job is fun, my manager is a pretty fun person to hang out, the assignments given by my bosses are quite challenging and entertaining, and more importantly the people i meet working there (customers to be exact) are quiet entertaining. Not to mention, its a game shop, so we are allowed to play games. XD
Im glad that i got this job so that I get to burn my time talking and meeting different kind of gamers and customers and I wanna thank Gamer's Hideout for hiring me. Hope I didnt do any mistake while working there so that they wouldnt feel regret for hiring me. DX
Hope everyone who is having long semester break like me is having a great time as well. X)
CHEERS!! XD
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
New Year Resolution
I flipped thru it once and flipped thru it twice and i pretty sure I was too lazy to flip thru it the third time.. but i NEVER write my new year's resolution in my blog post before.. Like NEVER!! D8 *shocked*
I guess maybe because my new year resolution is always made between me and my friends. Back when I was still active in sunday school, we will have a party at a certain someone's place, go and have our countdown, watch the fireworks.. Then after that, we will sit together in circle and share our new year's resolution.. It was pretty emotional come to think of it.
During the College days, it is about the same. Pick a location, have our new years countdown, look at the fireworks but instead of sitting in circles and sharing it with everyone who is in the circle, we share it to each other personally. If not, we will talk about it thru our skype moments about new years resolution.. It was really random sometimes. XD
This year's new years countdown was different.. Instead of going out party and mixing with my friends for countdown.. I stayed at home, look after the house while my whole family heads out for new years countdown. Its not that I was forced to stay at home or something (actually it kinda is, cause i was taking my afternoon nap and when i woke up BAM everyone is gone) I just didnt really want to go out with friends.. AND not because me and my friends had a fight or something, is just that i think they should spend their new years with their girlfriends more instead of the pathetic emotional singleton me. (im there to be a lamp post anyways.)
So instead of sitting in a circles or skyping my friends and talking about our new years resolution, I told my new years resolution to my dogs! Even to the ferret who i complete dont give a damn. Some of you guys will think that "OMG, that is soooo cute!". No really.. its not.. its really sad. Havent you all heard that lonely willow lady will get cats and talk to them because they are lonely? Well, its the same for me.. just that i have dogs and ferrets instead. XD
ANYWAYS!! My new year resolution has always been the same.. ALWAYS BEEN THE SAME. Really, for those of you who have heard my new years resolution before, well dont get bored of hearing it again cause its going to be about the same. Cause im a greedy person.. even if my resolution is achieve.. I want it to be better.. OR maybe that resolution hasnt been achieved yet. XD
Like i said im a greedy person.. I tend to wish for ALOT of things.. If i were to talk about my new years resolution right here, it will be back crack long and from a pretty small topic blog post will become the twilight series. (or maybe longer) So i've found a sentence (actually my friend did that for me but thats not the point) that can made my new years resolution short and simple.
I wish/aim for a BETTER LIFE! XD See short and simple~ XD
Also i wish to have a girlfriend who loves me as much as i love her.
Im not saying that my life currently sucks. I just want it to be better. Better than I've expect. Cause life has it own way on changing stuffs all in the sudden. And sometimes, it doesnt go the way that you want it to. So I hope that this year life would just obey me alittle bit more.. just alittle bit.. XP
So tell me guys. Whats your new years resolution?
CHEERS! XD
I guess maybe because my new year resolution is always made between me and my friends. Back when I was still active in sunday school, we will have a party at a certain someone's place, go and have our countdown, watch the fireworks.. Then after that, we will sit together in circle and share our new year's resolution.. It was pretty emotional come to think of it.
During the College days, it is about the same. Pick a location, have our new years countdown, look at the fireworks but instead of sitting in circles and sharing it with everyone who is in the circle, we share it to each other personally. If not, we will talk about it thru our skype moments about new years resolution.. It was really random sometimes. XD
This year's new years countdown was different.. Instead of going out party and mixing with my friends for countdown.. I stayed at home, look after the house while my whole family heads out for new years countdown. Its not that I was forced to stay at home or something (actually it kinda is, cause i was taking my afternoon nap and when i woke up BAM everyone is gone) I just didnt really want to go out with friends.. AND not because me and my friends had a fight or something, is just that i think they should spend their new years with their girlfriends more instead of the pathetic emotional singleton me. (im there to be a lamp post anyways.)
So instead of sitting in a circles or skyping my friends and talking about our new years resolution, I told my new years resolution to my dogs! Even to the ferret who i complete dont give a damn. Some of you guys will think that "OMG, that is soooo cute!". No really.. its not.. its really sad. Havent you all heard that lonely willow lady will get cats and talk to them because they are lonely? Well, its the same for me.. just that i have dogs and ferrets instead. XD
ANYWAYS!! My new year resolution has always been the same.. ALWAYS BEEN THE SAME. Really, for those of you who have heard my new years resolution before, well dont get bored of hearing it again cause its going to be about the same. Cause im a greedy person.. even if my resolution is achieve.. I want it to be better.. OR maybe that resolution hasnt been achieved yet. XD
Like i said im a greedy person.. I tend to wish for ALOT of things.. If i were to talk about my new years resolution right here, it will be back crack long and from a pretty small topic blog post will become the twilight series. (or maybe longer) So i've found a sentence (actually my friend did that for me but thats not the point) that can made my new years resolution short and simple.
I wish/aim for a BETTER LIFE! XD See short and simple~ XD
Also i wish to have a girlfriend who loves me as much as i love her.
Im not saying that my life currently sucks. I just want it to be better. Better than I've expect. Cause life has it own way on changing stuffs all in the sudden. And sometimes, it doesnt go the way that you want it to. So I hope that this year life would just obey me alittle bit more.. just alittle bit.. XP
So tell me guys. Whats your new years resolution?
CHEERS! XD
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